日本語(自分でリンク開いて^_^)
http://relaxmaxontheroad.com/my-teenage-2/
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I will be 50 next year
feels strange to go back to my high school where I spent somewhat difficult my teenage as BODY LIKE CHILDREN (=原発性無月経 I never had first period so no blood at all… no under hair or…)
I used to be
大阪女学院high school student
just like “みんな=everyone”!
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I wanted to be like “みんな=everyone”
School girls in their uniforms like “みんな=everyone”
What is “NORMAL” ふつう？
What is “みんな=normal”?
I know
I’m different from others
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I am ME
We never understand each other
If We are in same uniforms,
I am so different from
what “We= みんな ふつう 生理がある teenage girl ” are.
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So
Different body
I have
as teenage girl without blood
分かり合えやしないってことだけを
わかりあうのさ
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Teenager によくあること！
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暗い夜に
痛いほど目を閉じた僕ら
What was “Dark night” kind of thing for Teenage girl ME?
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I knew
I Can’t BE
“just like NORMAL girl”
If I wear high school uniform,
I kind of knew that
I look like “みんな=Everyone “
That kind of my HIGH SCOOL DAYS
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17,
I had sex check (DNA, I am FEMALE but no blood!) and started to take medication.
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Sure,
I am Okay NOW!
I love myself
I love my body as it is
ACCEPTANCE
でも
今は平気さ
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I was kind of serious
I wanted to know
WHAT is meaning of LIFE? (With my body without blood)
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I couldn’t find the meanings
as TEENAGE melancholy…( just LIKE YOU! Haha!)
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There’s no meaning
To LIVE
(…
nihilism
In
TEEN BODY without blood )
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TO be a GIRL without blood
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And I survived
I accepted something really difficult to accept
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TO LIVE as it is
TO LOVE myself
TO LOVE my teenage body without blood…
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I am different
I am relaxmax
I LOVE my body
I LOVE what I am
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I will be 50 next year,
Still
I sometimes find myself
Like… I am 17
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GIRL as 50
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17
I was reading a lot
I liked my LIBRARY at Osaka Jogakuin high school (THANK YOU MAMA! I love YOU!)
I tried to find
“MY BOOK!”
… dates, when I first met my SPECIAL book in high school library…but probably all books had gone …( something new! Not the one I read :()
CIEN Años
Rocked Room
Narnias
Newromancer
Or…
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Now I’m writing
“JUST A CYBERPUNK 満月 full moon”
in this novel I cited a lot…some novels and musics are…I came across when I was high school girl…:)
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School girl nihilism
LIVE as
Teenbody
I am different girl … when I was 17!
17歳の僕がいた、、、って歌いながらあの制服を着て「生きる意味」とか考えてた”みんな”みたいに大阪女学院の制服着た女の子だった！お母さんありがとう