I AM A TIME TRAVELER – 自分の意識を扉として自由にタイムトラベルする
by relaxmax · 2020/12/06 (in Japanese)
宇宙の大きさ(質量ではなく)自体は Expanding 大きくなり続けている
Universe itself is forever (or EVERlasting not”NEVER)
Expanding ( Big = is something really Earth thing tho… how “ big?” What? (What is “nani? In Earth language?) no need to use “LANGUAGE” for some, you know?
その一方
Direction?
Intentiion
仏: vérité
TRUTH
“ITSELF”
中身(その中に 何がある、 なにもない と仮定したとして)は 一定ではない
TIME
Subjective suvstance-ies
THE PHYSICAL -Grain(sand)
Like Sand DUNE(it’s kind of DUNE! HAVE BEEN THERE ( almost forever like…) but there’s no DUNE , it’s just Sand ( grain!)
それが次元移動の秘密でもある
CHANGE , to
SPEED to
…( not secret anymore “ YOU KNEW”)
TIME traveller relaxmax
Have already wrote it here ( in Japanese 2020, 2 years “BEFORE” she wrote it here in English!)
液体の 膜 のように 水滴のように
Film liquid twist outward (but not twist!)
Something NEW
Just BORN
Like morning DEW ( drop the temperature? Not human!
しずくのドロップのように
DROPs
Water itself =HUMAN’s concious
誰かの意識が拡張する
You( here in English) AWARENESS
New knowledge
意識の拡張と宇宙の有り様は、少し似ている。
If you read it here in English “NOW”( not 2 years “past” you say “AGO”?)
THERE WASn’t English writing( by ME relaxmax)
2 years (past? AGO? … POINT of Universe!)
When you expand yourself, Your Universe itself is also expanding!
意識が変容し そのひと自体が変わる
You already have changed!
(Not YOU anymore ( you haven’t read this English writing by ME!)
Somehow, You are already not YOU ANYMORE!
(It’s always like that…)
Consciousness, Sense, Change in YOU!,
makes
Difference in Your Universe, … and YOU.
ひとが変われば、その人が「かつてみていたなにか」も もちろん違って透視える
If I see YOU “NOW” ( after reading my English writing!)
Universe is always RE-NEW!
Somehow different! ( for … ( you can call anybody here…!)
KATSUTE MITE ITA NANIKA
“BEFORE” “SEE” “past tense” “What” “Everything”
Something You saw before
Have always different meaning of LIFE
Because You are already not YOU anymore.
Prophetic saw? ( Of course, they were totally different visions , Something You were misunderstanding that ” YOU can always go back to HOME”)
I wonder why my father is not in these photos ( maybe my father was pressing shutter… or?)
ここにパパが写っていないけど、パパがシャッター押していたのかな?
パパのお父さん
おじいちゃんと私^_^
This is my Papa’s father… my grandad! Setoyama san ;)
パパは優(まさる)
My father is Masaru Setoyama
私のおじいちゃん、瀬戸山の、、、下の名前なんだったんだろう?(教えて欲しい!聞いてみよ!)
I can’t remember my grandad’s name… what was his name? ( I know only his surname…) I wanna ask my mum or…
My grand dad is …. Setoyama.. ( but I only remember his surname,,, he was working for HANSHIN depertment store! ( 部長さん? when I was 小5!)
私 瀬戸山郁恵 だった
My name was
IKUE SETOYAMA (瀬戸山 my father’s surname…
両親が離婚するまで
before they separate, I was SETOYAMA ( after my parents divorced I started to use my mum’s surname UYAMA 宇山 I was living with my mum after their divorce..)
(両親の結婚 角隠し 白無垢の母の写真は持ってる I have some photos from my parents’ wedding…)
… and KATAYAMA san ( different surname from my grand dad ” SETOYAMA”… she is step mother of my PAPA! MY DAD and Katayama san( step mother) didn’t get along well at all…? ( so my dad had to leave his father’s (SETOYAMA) house at some point.. this was before I started to meet my DAD after 19 years absence…)
My dad’s real mother was living in SUMIYOSHI ( near sumiyoshi shrine) … and she killed herself.. ( according to my auntie… she was telling me on the night MY DAD died… we talked a lot and she taught me something I never heard of before… Me and DAD( masaru)’s step mother(katayama) is also no connection at all ( no blood connection…)
片山さんが抱っこしているは 赤ちゃんの妹
My sis is in Katayamasan’s arm…
These two photos are from “‘ 7 5 3 ” from my childhood…
I don’t have much memory about MY OWN 753…! surprising!
3歳の自分がやってもらった753、、、私ぜんぜん覚えてなーーい!(驚愕)
( I had shooting (753 ritual shooting for some families! ) around this house ( like 1 min walk?)
small local shrine near HIGASHI MIKUNI ( 東三国駅) station
( next to SHIN OSAKA) Me and family( 753 ) talked about my grandad’s house( or I should say MY DAD’s) is around here…!
years later…
maybe, some children I shoot,
they may forget about the day of 753…!( their 753 day!)
if
they have no photos of 753 ( MY PHOTOS! )
だから
私が撮影したこどもたちも
もしかしたら スッカリ!
ぜーーんぶ 忘れてしまうこともあるのかな?写真を見るまでは!
写真を見ると
家族 親の愛 祖父母の愛をおもう
When I see photos of 753, it reminds me of
” FATHER’s MOTHER’s Grandad’s ” LOVE ….
わざわざ着物着せて
753 やってくれていたんだな。。!
They dressed me in KIMONO! and took these photos!! for 753 rituals…!
私が着ている着物は
母方のおばあちゃんの着物だったとか
ウヤマの姓になる前旧姓は公文だったそうな。
高知にある曾祖母(?)の家小5の頃に訪ねて行った、母と妹と私の3人で。の着物だったとか
MY KIMONO ( for 753 ritual)
is
from MY Mother’s M0ther…!祖母 ( my grandmother’s… she passed when I was 2. (she died from cancer) .
Her surname before her marriage was KUMON ( 公文)from Kochi高知…. I visited my Grandmother’s ( mother? or … some family from my mother’s mother’s…) was it Great-grandmother? ひいおばあちゃん?prob
…AKI(安芸)
I was 10 or something like that…Me and my mother, and my sis traveled to Kochi…
My grand dad’s ( 宇山UYAMA’s family) family business is KIMONO shop ( Gofuku ya ) in Hokkaido… ( I heard when I was a child),
My grand dad( Uyama) came back from Mansyu( 満州), after spending 8 years!! , met my Grand Mother ( Kumon) in Osaka … ( the boat from China arrived Osaka port… he was on the way back Home ( Hokkaido) Bihoro( 美幌)…My grand dad decided not to go back to hometown ( hokkaido北海道) , then they got married and started to live together in Osaka.
My grand dad( Uyama) was plasterer/Leader of carpenters ( 左官、大工の棟梁?). I heard from My mom that Japanese restaurant (料亭)in Arashiyama (嵐山)which My grand dad built!!! was by Togetsu kyo bridge ( 渡月橋)…
うちの両親 私が小さい頃離婚、、と聞いていた
I heard My parents divorced when I was little…( before 6? )
離婚しても
父からの遺産って離婚した後の子供に入るって読んだことある、最近になって
Recently,
I just found out that I COULD receive my dad’s legacy after my parents divorce… ( which means MY GRAND DAD’s house and land in Higashi mikuni(東三国 祖父の家とか土地とか) and…
ME and MY grandad( SETOYAMA 瀬戸山)in front of his house in Higashimikuni(東三国)
Land and house (… and… money? where ‘s bank card? ( guess my auntie had ?? but didn’t tell how much in it? or did she say??? 実印(hanko!)
According to my auntie, My grand dad( SETOYAMA) is sooooo RICH!!!
My auntie’s mother and My DAD ‘s mother is different…(腹違い うちの父が実子、、、叔母は、、、?(後妻さんでもなく、今でいう妾?ちょっと詳しいことはわからない。。。)
My father 父 and my auntie(父とは腹違いの母から生まれた、、、妹!)
had tough time when they are kids… ( MY Dad’s mother killed herself?? I just heard from my auntie on the day my dad’s died… My dad never told me about that…)
My auntie wanted to do runaways( 家出)then she met her husband…( they have 3 kids, I met them ( and their kids!) on the day of MY DAD’s funeral…
And you better start swimmin’ Or you’ you’ll sink like a stone
もし君自身の時間が、、、救う価値があるのなら
もう泳ぎ始めた方がいい さもないと石のように沈み始めてしまう
Come writers and critics
Who prophesize with your pen
ライターたちよ 批評家たちよ
集え
君たちのペンで予言を書くものたちよ
And keep your eyes wide
目を開いて
The chance won't come again
And don't speak too soon
チャンスはもう一度は来ない
すぐに話はじめちゃいけない
The Times They Are A-Changin’ / Bob Dylan
Timeless, priceless, survive any crisis
タイムレス プライスレス どんな危機も生き残れ
This is history right here in the makin
これは 歴史
ここで作られている
So call this timeless
だから これを タイムレス と呼ぶ
And we’re bound to keep your mind elevatin
そして 僕たちは 君たちの意識をelevate(し続ける)つもりだ
So this here is timeless
This is pure original innovation
So call this timeless
This is somethin to give you inspiration
So this here is timeless
I’ve been listening to his music for 30 years! ( since Flipper’s Guitar … I was high school student)
LOOK !(What’s happening in this world? or inside of YOU!)
and FEEL ! (How you feel? )
CAN YOU FIND COMPASSION in YOU?
(Have you try to feel as if you are disabled, bullied by Keigo? or…)
IMAGINATION
PAIN still We’ve GOT!!
Learning
with PAINFUL FACT!
(is it easier to understand pain if you have disabled family or if you are disabled or have bullied by or… Is it still “SOMEBODY ELSE’S PAIN”? …I’m not bullying, I wasn’t victim, or I’m not disabled or I have no friends or family who has disability… I HAD DISABLED HUSBAND…)
プレイリストの曲たちは、各アーティストのデビューアルバムであること気がつけば多かった!(U.F.O , Cornelius , Arrested Development, St. etienne , Ben Watt ,Digable Planets, ATCQ, Stone Roses, 金延幸子 , Minnie Reperton などなど)
私も、高校生だった90年代から、遠くはなれた場所に今はいる。
10代の頃の「遠い記憶」
あの曲、「テネシー! 」って歌っていたのはその頃の友達。(だから彼らArrested Developmentのこと知ったんだった!彼女には年上の姉兄がいて、アナログでCafe Bleuとか彼女が持ってた(お姉ちゃんのレコードだったのかな?)。ATCQのMidnight Marauders出た頃(高3)にリイシューでThe Law and Theoryを両方アナログ買っていたのも彼女(だから聴いていたんだなー、きっと。なんか彼女がレコード買ってたとき、一緒にいた気もする。心斎橋かな?)
Its great pleasure to shoot Artist who I’ve been listening since 90s as a teenager ( I was 16 and I met them 14 years later in REAL LIFE … in front of my camera! ! The answers to all which are in front of me!as answered prayer ;D)
As an official photographer at BIG CHILL ;)
Bigchillでオフィシャルフォトグラファーやりたい!って願った
その願いが叶った!(Answered Prayer!)
だから私は、その時、その場所=Big Chill にいた!
そしたら、偶然、Arredsted Developmentはその年のヘッドライナーでイギリスに来ていた!(彼らはアメリカのアーティストで、私は日本からイギリスに行っていた。we both on the road! )
Miracle encounter just happend ;)
私たちは 奇跡の中 生きている。
WE LIVE IN MIRACLES!
I wanted to take photo as “OFFICIAL ” photographer at bigchill ;) and I was there because my DREAM has already CAME TRUE!
and…. Arrested Development were one of the head liners at BIG CHILL, so for me, kind of miracle to catch them! ( coz I didn’t know they perform till I got there , I just found their name when I arrived bigchill site…!)
I ask you Lord why you enlightened me
Without the enlightenment of all my folks
神様にたずねた どうして僕を目覚めさせた
僕の家族たちすべてが 目覚めたわけでないのに
He said cause I set myself on a quest for truth
それは 君が真実を探究したからだと神様は言う
+++
His songs helped me to wake me up,
without noticing, I’ve been listening to their songs…!
他に、2006年出演していたのは、Gilles Peterson, Ben Westbeech, 4HERO, Cold Cut, Mix Master Morris, Mr.Scruff Roots Manuva, AIM, DJ Derek (R.I.P) とかとか。
(MorrisさんとCold Cut DJ DEREK 以外はこの年初めて見たかも!Big Chill には合計5回ぐらい行ってる)
4HERO Les Fleur 聴いたよ!;)(彼らはTalkin’ Loudからリリース)
It blooms to spread love and joy, faith and hope to people forlorn
Inside every man lives the seed of a flower
If he looks within he finds beauty and power
愛と喜びと誠実さ、そして希望を孤独な人に届けるため 花は咲く
すべての人の内側には 花の種が生きている
内側を探せば 美しさと力が見つかるでしょう
Throw off your fears, let your heart beat freely
at the sign that a new time is born
恐れをすて
新しい時間が生まれたことに
自由にハートを高鳴らせよう
Les Fleur / 4HERO
もともとミニー・リパートンのファーストアルバム ”Come to My Garden” の一曲目:)
We are tea drinkers ;) Mr.Scruff とLeg wobblers ;) AAAのパス持って笑ってる、若いかなー今より;)
Follow your star
BE brave, be faithful and true
君たちの 星を追いかけろ
勇気とともに 誠実でありそして真の自分であれ
HELLO YOUNG LOVERS / STEVIE WONDER(69)
(Clue Lから同タイトルのコンピあったけどspotifyにはなかった:D)
dropped to my knees and prayed
I said oh heavenly thing, please cleanse my soul
I said send me a sign to save my life
Cause at this moment in time there is nothing certain in
These days of mine
Yes its a frightening thing when it dawns upon you
That I know as much as the day I was born
And though I wasn’t asked (I might as well stay)
Foresight is the only key
So my friends to stop the end
予見することはただ一つの鍵
だから僕の友達たち
終わりを止めよう
When You Gonna Learn /Jamiroquai (93)
地球が病気になってます
そのことが 辛いのです
本当はこれ、むりです と
泣いちゃう Makes Me Cry / 小沢健二(2021)
(90年代とかに聴いてた曲でおもに選曲しようと思ったけどこれだけ2021)
I’m far away from everything
すべてから遠くはなれて
On Box Hill / Ben Watt (83)
I wish we’d wake up one day – an’ everyone feel moved
いつか
みんなで
目覚めたら みんなが心 動かしてくれたら
I wish we’d come to our senses and see there is no truth
In those who promote the confusion for this ever changing mood
みんなが 気がついたらいいのに
こんなふうに たえず変わり続ける世の中で
混乱をおしすすめるやつらのなかに 本当のことなんてないって
My Ever Changing Moods / The Style Council (84)
Summer holiday 1999
This rush to live
Summer holiday 1999
This wish to die
1999年の夏休み、この生への渇望
1999年の夏休み、この死への願望
Summer Holiday 1999 / Momus (90)
(もともと1990年にフリッパーズがいたから出たコンピ FAB GEARに入ってた
日本語詩・ double knockout corporation)
Would you know my name if I saw you in heaven?
I must be strong and carry on
I’ll find my way
Through night and day
‘Cause I know I just can’t stay
Here in heaven
By chance I give birth to my visions
Life is so fantastic it will come as no surprise
偶然に出会い現実化する
ヴィジョンを産み出す
なんにも驚くことはない
人生はなんてステキ! ‘Cause every day is adventures in paradise
Woven well through the fabrics of time
The chime will ring to bring
the rhyme that is a sting to sing
I’ll gladly realize it’s the END of OUR YOUTH
やがて鐘が鳴り
痛みのある韻詩を運んでくる
僕はよろこんで 僕らのユースの終わりを知るだろう
The Chime Will Ring / The Flipper’s Guitar (89)
Be Wise to history Open your eyes and declare to me
I’m just like a whisper on the breeze
Praying to the team oh don’t say me
I’m just like a whistler on the tree
Praying to the breeze oh don’t move me
I’ve seen that silence can break your heart
It’s like a bond of iron we’ll rend apart
We sit her in torpor by our old fireside
And just agree to differ — Three cheers for our side
You can laugh at danger all day long
Still be laughing when the sun has gone
Be wise to history
Open your eyes and declare to me
See them wending, never ending, smiling cheers
You know that very shortly they’ll turn to tears
We sit here for ever by our old fireside
And won’t sing in spring — Three cheers for our side
Say not so long
Sift through the sand
Wave of the hand
Goodbye
I didn’t know before visiting exhibition, “Window” is something important for her as well…
(to me I made a photobook “Perfect view from the Window” from my travels, I met my window in 2012 and I first enlarged my perfect window as REAL SIZE ! in 2015 spring time, in the photobook I said “YES” to some question on NONAME ISLAND, you can check the answer in my photobook in ICP NY or you can order it ;)
I bought “YES” badges and pen!:) for souvenir. I still keep it SAFE for my HAPPY MEMORIES!
One of most impressive art from Barcelona is “Play it by trust”
Massive sized all white chess set
…. like there’s no meaning to fight, no one win no one loose,there’s no “black and white” in the world…kind of impression I had
This photo is from 2015 Tokyo, “Voice Piece for Soprano for Simone Morris”
I took selfie with it
I asked somebody from the museum to press the shutter for my selfie :)!I wanted to go to John and Yoko’s Double Fantasy as well…but I JUST CAN’T!!(from Osaka …to Tokyo, traveling is fatal (for me in corona time …:( )
Wishing US ALL
PROTECTION fromCORONA!!
Yoko Ono さんの大きい白いチェスの作品
2003?にバルセロナで見た
バルセロナでみた展示で一番印象に残っているのは全部が白いチェス
(世界に白黒なんてなくって、戦うことなんてナンセンス、どっちが勝つどっちが負けるそういうものでないような、、Play It By Trust!)
そして2015年、
記念に
YESピンバッジと白い小さな缶バッジ、そしてボールペンを買って今も大切に持っている^_^
そしてこの東京展示
タイトルがfrom my window窓!だった
あんまり知らなかったけれど、、、(私にとっても「窓」はperfect view from the window の写真絵本も作ったように大切なもの、2012年に出会った窓、2015年の春にはじめてreal size にプリントした「あの窓」、名前のない島に戻ってある質問に「YES」と答えた!その質問が気になる人は、NYのICPの図書館で本を読んでみるか、私にオーダーしてね!)