At this moment, lying on my bed and recalling my life, I realize that all the recognition and wealth that I took so much pride in have paled and become meaningless in the face of my death.
死の顔の前で
Deathを目の前にして
彼が書いた
Final Essay
Whichever stage in life you are in right now, with time, you will face the day when the curtain comes down.
今
君が
人生のどんなステージ
にいたとしても
時間が
幕が下りる時
が来る
人生の幕がおりる日
talk about north-south-east-west or heaven and earth
北とか南とか
東、西
ヘブンや地球について語る
(ような友達がいるってことが
本当の幸せってこと。)
There is a big difference between a human being and being human.
人類
と
ヒトであること
には大きな違いがある。
You are loved when you are born.
君は生まれた時
愛されている。
The Six best Doctors in the World
Steve Jobs
Guanajuatoで出会った「P」
今朝送られて来たメール✉️より^_^
CEO of Apple
(2011に亡くなった、、、だからかな？2012年にメキシコの街でSteve Jobsの、、、見かけたな)
彼のFinal Essay
In 2002 (before marriage maybe?)
Somalian boy throwed a stone (3 of them one girl, and two boys were there…)
They were on top of …
Hilly bit of “here”?(maybe)
I was walking towards the entrance (of Lansdowne Court)
They attacked me from behind…
A stone hit my head (left side of ear tho I was wearing knitted hat(?)…
I looked back, ( from left side )
…then I saw “THEM”
Somalian kids (2 boys and a girl… they are kinda giggling…)
I was scared and run away… ( to my flat entrance!)
RIP MARK Stewart
One of
Bristol’s …
(I only had “Y” got it when I was a teenager…?or early twenties…)
I got the news again on “ insta”
(Internet…)
Daddy G (Massive Attack)’s insta…
I wonder how old Gran is…
(Or RSD Rob Smith, I read they were in a same band…in 80s? and Rob san was telling me that they went to splatter movie together…(eating mashroom! Shroom! West Country…)
Same era as Mark was playing in Bristol?… Mark and Rob san is about same age … 1960(Mark) or 1959(rob San)…I guess Gran is older than them?
I heard (only once) Rob san’s guitar (he is a guitarist in a different band called “Dub from Atlantis” (ahh.. that venue is gone … can’t remember the name but I did “poetry reading (poetry Monday!)”…Storks Croft… ah! “CROFT”, isn’t it?!?!
I don’t know much about punk era of Bristol ( I was living in 2002-2004)
…and I remember his comment on insta( “get well soon” was it by him?!)
Opening line for
very first Relaxmax’s short story
(written in English) 英語の書き出し
When I wrote this in 2017 spring (very first English short story written by relaxmax), I didn’t think about style(文体BUNTAI). (Coz it’s “short one”! (Just as it is “me relaxmax”!)
I didn’t think about
“Opening line”.
(When I look back now, I could’ve think about “very relaxmax! Opening line”but I never thought of… anyway this is “me relaxmax”!)
“I tried to find the island on the map, but couldn’t find it…”
relaxmax’s opening line!
2016 Feb,
I was writing “my red note” on the island.
On the road
I was writing both in Japanese and in English (also bit of “pagination” with my own photo and words…)
when I design English version (as book!) I choose “just ordinary” font! (STANDARD FONT)
(Nihongo font is free font :D I chose for “Perfect View from the Window” “utsukushi mincho”)
英語で文章部分書いて(短編！^_^
それをブックデザイン(英語版)
する時に
(1ページにのっかる文章(英語)の量は 日本語といっしょの量で)
フォントは
「みんな知ってそうなよくある 元々コンピュータに入っているやつ」
って選び方
したかなー！
ちなみに日本語のフォントは
ブックデザインを自分でする時
「日本語フォント」
フリーで商用利用可能
のやつこの本のために選んで探した！
(、、、うつくし明朝 とか そういう名前だったかな？)
Opening line について考えた
(写真絵本書いた時はなんも考えてなかったけど！)
有名どころ^_^
国境の長いトンネルを抜けると、、(雪国ね！)
I like Hemingway but always read in Japanese translation (except “Indian Camp” I read when I was 18 for my American literature class).
Bobby Caldwell Carlos Garnet Jeff Beck YTakahashi(YMO) M Duffy (FELT PRIMAL) Terry Hall (The Specials The Colour Field) Pharaoh Sanders Her Late Majesty Ramsey Lewis Red Astaire…
Writing a novel in English …(I am Japanese and I’m not English native …
So I try find my “文体 style” (for my English novel!
I already have “style” (about writing novel in “Japanese”!!) I guess, coz I read lots (of books when I was a teenager …!)
I started to write my ENGLISH novel in 2019.
I was thinking …is it better to read some novel ( to find my BUNTAI style in English writing(for novel)!
… then I just didn’t read any :) haha!
Capote is one of my choice tho but I didn’t read his novel (long story) in English…
I only read Capote’s short stories ( in Japanese translations …years ago when I was a teenager)
About novel, I only read some short stories in English (in Japanese translation I read lots more tho) , never read “long one”(短編じゃない長編！を英語で一冊も！読んでいない。日本語翻訳でティーンの時にたくさん読んだけど！「日本語」！英語の文体について、、、改めて自分で考えた「理由」！
… So I just Write and found myself (my ENGLISH buntai style for NOVEL!)
If I write in English
More friends can read! (non Japanese speaker I have on FB (or insta or..)!)
Perfect view from the window(にほんご Japanese) 2016 Oct (I finish “design” My photographs and my short story in Oct “book” ! …so my story itself… don’t remember when exactly I finish writing:( in Japanese)
opening line for relaxmax’s very first short story! (in English)
When I wrote this in 2016-2017 (very first English short story written by relaxmax), I didn’t think about style(文体BUNTAI). (Coz it’s “short one”! (Just as it is “me relaxmax”!)
I don’t remember exactly when I finish writing in English…:)
I didn’t think about “Opening line”. (When I look back now, I could’ve think about “very relaxmax! Opening line”but I never thought of… anyway this is “me relaxmax”!)
“I tried to find the island on the map, but couldn’t find it…”
relaxmax’s opening line!
2016 Feb, I was writing “my red note” on the island.
He was just waiting for
A new body
To complete emission
彼はただ
新しいボディを待っていた
光の(命の)放出を
完成させるために
命を完全に全うすること
彼は
彼の年齢もあるからか
用意していたんだな。
ル グイン
4冊目が突然出たあと(94年かな 私最初によんだの)
知らなかったけど
ゲド戦記5、6
アースシーのことを書きはじめてから(30年以上もまえ)
作者も変わる
読者も変わる
時代も変わる
(彼女はもう亡くなってしまっているようで もっと早く読みたかったな、、、)
なんとなく
ル グィン の
影との戦いも
思い出したり
「なまえ」
「ことば？」
それで読んだお話
「地の骨」 ゲド戦記5
アーシュラ・K・ル=グウィン
清水真砂子 訳
岩波少年文庫^_^！
I wanted to read “Earthsea tales” (I read when I was a teenager…then haven’t read them for a while, I read “4″ when I was 18 or 19 (it was “3″ of them… then suddenly “4″ came out.) …I didn’t know but there is 5 and 6 now… and I found out that Le=Guin already died…:( I wish I could’ve read when she was alive… Her words still alive here on Earth so I could READ HER BOOKS!
“The Bones of the Earth”
Ursula Kroeber Le Guin
____
あれに言い忘れたな、わしはもう、もどることはないと。
さいごの言葉
Final Word
(I read Le=Guin in Japanese… these Japanese words above are somebody’s final word :) you’ll find it when you read the book, or You can use auto translate!)
Thank you for helping us become a group that will remain etched in the timeline of hip hop culture as well as the fabric of music and for now on when we perform “Ring Ring Ring Ha Ha Hey” we will say “2-2-2-2-222 we got an angel in heaven who can talk to you”.
De La Soul Live from Webster Hall: The Life & Legacy of Dave aka Plug 2 youtube
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May I cut this dance to introduce myself as The chosen one to speak?
選ばれし者として ちょっとダンスを中断して 話し始めてもいいかい？
Let me lay my hand across yours And aim a kiss upon your cheek
君の手に 僕の手を 僕は君の頬にキスを
The name’s Plug Two (Is Plug Two) And from the soul I bring you The Daisy of your choice
名前は Plug Two 魂から 君の選んだデイジーを 捧げるよ
May it be filled with the pleasure principle In circumference to my voice About those other Jennys I reckoned with Lost them all like a homework excuse
It’s I again, and the soul that I send Is taking steps to reach your heart Any moment you feel alone I can fill up your empty part We can ascend ’til we reach De La Heaven
僕 Plug Two アゲイン 僕が送った魂は
君のハートに届くため 一歩一歩近づいている
君が一人だと感じる時には いつだって 君の空っぽな部分を 満たしてあげる
デ ラ ヘブンに到達するまで 僕たちは上昇していくことが出来る
And in a spin we’ll hit the Top Ten Then we can meet Mr. Stuckie And Pos’ brother Lucky will preach “Let the wedding begin” (The wedding begin) Shot by an arrow of cupid Through the string of a G-clef
My dear, I claim you’re deaf And if you can hear me, by golly gee Trugoy is ready for what you possess We could live in my Plug Two home And on Mars where we could be all alone And we make a song for two Picture perfect things and I sing of how
愛しいヒト My dear 君は聴こえないんだ もし君が 僕の言ってること聞こえるなら 神様 なんてこった
Shaman Sofi
is a daughter (of Maria Sabina’s … not niece but “family”.. don’t know exactly how I call in English)
Ceremonia
2000
Hongos
Huahutla Mexico
Shaman Sofi
Three shaman ladies were singing for us…
Set
And
Setting
Curing myself
I travelled dimensionally
Pet sounds
—
Huahutla
Hongos
LSD
Hoffman (Swiss)
Lucy in the
Sky with
Diamonds
—
Originally Mazatec ritual
Sacred hongos
…
But I just read (on wiki) about
“CIA’s mind control project MK Ultra”
Mind Control with medicine
(Depending on age)
(…and word “Russia”)
s Psilocybe mexicana, and took them to Paris. The fungus was cultivated in Europe and its primary psychoactive ingredient, psilocybin, was isolated in the laboratory by Swiss chemist Albert Hofmann in 1958.
From wiki
a 1957 Life magazine article, Seeking the Magic Mushroom;
Mazatec custom
she was ostracized, her house was burned down, her son was murdered
Sabina later regretted having introduced Wasson to the practice,
Wasson contended that his only intention was to contribute to the sum of human knowledge, despite being funded by the CIA’s mind control project MK Ultra.
From wiki
—-
Maria Sabina
Visionary poet …(somebody said)
Shaman Sofi
Hold
“Field” (not now)
Field is kind of two dimensional thing
Sometimes magnetic
That “NIGHT”!!!
Colour of the night
(Colour is not dimensional thing “AT ALL”)
——
戦争の技術
FOR WAR(CIA vs KGB)
マインドコントロール
MIND CONTROL
自白剤、、、ロシア、、
(Russian anesthetic drug that has a hypnotic effect)
（それ今も乱用？
is this still happening now?
むずかしー。。
Scary
ー
From Wiki
Central
Intelligence
Agency
LSD
Manipulate
ー
CIA？KGB?
Sounds like “just a tale from 60’s movie or something” to me
I wonder why my father is not in these photos ( maybe my father was pressing shutter… or?)
ここにパパが写っていないけど、パパがシャッター押していたのかな？
パパのお父さん
おじいちゃんと私^_^
This is my Papa’s father… my grandad! Setoyama san ;)
パパは優(まさる)
My father is Masaru Setoyama
私のおじいちゃん、瀬戸山の、、、下の名前なんだったんだろう？
I can’t remember my grandad’s name… what was his name? ( I know only his surname…) I wanna ask my mum or…
My grand dad is …. Setoyama.. ( but I only remember his surname,,, he was working for HANSHIN depertment store! ( 部長さん？ when I was 小5！）
私 瀬戸山郁恵 だった
My name was
IKUE SETOYAMA （瀬戸山 my father’s surname…
両親が離婚するまで
before they separate, I was SETOYAMA ( after my parents divorced I started to use my mum’s surname UYAMA 宇山 I was living with my mum after their divorce..)
(両親の結婚 角隠し 白無垢の母の写真は持ってる I have some photos from my parents’ wedding…)
… and KATAYAMA san ( different surname from my grand dad ” SETOYAMA”… she is step mother of my PAPA! MY DAD and Katayama san( step mother) didn’t get along well at all…? ( so my dad had to leave his father’s (SETOYAMA) house at some point.. this was before I started to meet my DAD after 19 years absence…)
My dad’s real mother was living in SUMIYOSHI ( near sumiyoshi shrine) … and she killed herself.. ( according to my auntie… she was telling me on the night MY DAD died… we talked a lot and she taught me something I never heard of before… Me and DAD( masaru)’s step mother(katayama) is also no connection at all ( no blood connection…)
片山さんが抱っこしているは 赤ちゃんの妹
My sis is in Katayamasan’s arm…
These two photos are from “‘ 7 5 3 ” from my childhood…
I don’t have much memory about MY OWN 753…! surprising!
3歳の自分がやってもらった753、、、私ぜんぜん覚えてなーーい！(驚愕)
( I had shooting (753 ritual shooting for some families! ) around this house ( like 1 min walk?)
small local shrine near HIGASHI MIKUNI ( 東三国駅) station
( next to SHIN OSAKA) Me and family( 753 ) talked about my grandad’s house( or I should say MY DAD’s) is around here…!
years later…
maybe, some children I shoot,
they may forget about the day of 753…!( their 753 day!)
if
they have no photos of 753 ( MY PHOTOS! )
だから
私が撮影したこどもたちも
もしかしたら スッカリ！
ぜーーんぶ 忘れてしまうこともあるのかな？写真を見るまでは！
写真を見ると
家族 親の愛 祖父母の愛をおもう
When I see photos of 753, it reminds me of
” FATHER’s MOTHER’s Grandad’s ” LOVE ….
わざわざ着物着せて
753 やってくれていたんだな。。！
They dressed me in KIMONO! and took these photos!! for 753 rituals…!
私が着ている着物は
母方のおばあちゃんの着物だったとか
ウヤマの姓になる前旧姓は公文だったそうな。
高知にある曾祖母(？)の家小5の頃に訪ねて行った、母と妹と私の3人で。の着物だったとか
MY KIMONO ( for 753 ritual)
is
from MY Mother’s M0ther…!祖母 ( my grandmother’s… she passed when I was 2. (she died from cancer) .
Her surname before her marriage was KUMON ( 公文）from Kochi高知…. I visited my Grandmother’s ( mother? or … some family from my mother’s mother’s…) was it Great-grandmother? ひいおばあちゃん？prob
…AKI(安芸）
I was 10 or something like that…Me and my mother, and my sis traveled to Kochi…
My grand dad’s ( 宇山UYAMA’s family) family business is KIMONO shop ( Gofuku ya ) in Hokkaido… ( I heard when I was a child),
My grand dad( Uyama) came back from Mansyu( 満州）, after spending 8 years!! , met my Grand Mother ( Kumon) in Osaka … ( the boat from China arrived Osaka port… he was on the way back Home ( Hokkaido) Bihoro( 美幌）…My grand dad decided not to go back to hometown ( hokkaido北海道) , then they got married and started to live together in Osaka.
My grand dad( Uyama) was plasterer/Leader of carpenters ( 左官、大工の棟梁？）. I heard from My mom that Japanese restaurant (料亭）in Arashiyama (嵐山）which My grand dad built!!! was by Togetsu kyo bridge ( 渡月橋)…
うちの両親 私が小さい頃離婚、、と聞いていた
I heard My parents divorced when I was little…( before 6? )
離婚しても
父からの遺産って離婚した後の子供に入るって読んだことある、最近になって
Recently,
I just found out that I COULD receive my dad’s legacy after my parents divorce… ( which means MY GRAND DAD’s house and land in Higashi mikuni(東三国 祖父の家とか土地とか） and…
ME and MY grandad( SETOYAMA 瀬戸山）in front of his house in Higashimikuni(東三国）
Land and house (… and… money? where ‘s bank card? ( guess my auntie had ?? but didn’t tell how much in it? or did she say??? 実印（hanko!)
According to my auntie, My grand dad( SETOYAMA) is sooooo RICH!!!
My auntie’s mother and My DAD ‘s mother is different…(腹違い うちの父が実子、、、叔母は、、、？（後妻さんでもなく、今でいう妾？ちょっと詳しいことはわからない。。。）
My father 父 and my auntie（父とは腹違いの母から生まれた、、、妹！）
had tough time when they are kids… ( MY Dad’s mother killed herself?? I just heard from my auntie on the day my dad’s died… My dad never told me about that…)
My auntie wanted to do runaways( 家出）then she met her husband…( they have 3 kids, I met them ( and their kids!) on the day of MY DAD’s funeral…
