PM of Belize came to Osaka last year for EXPO2025.
In Belize
On noname island
On the side of black boy’s second boat…
“SOMALIAN”
I was wondering…why
but,
( “Perfect view from the window” in NY ICP or UWE library in Bristol)
(Not in Osaka! :)
Black and Slave trade
Belize and the UK (the reason why they speak in English not in Spanish)
Why
“SOMALIAN” (in English) (on the side of the boat)
in Belize?
I was living in Bristol
in Council flat
in Easton! where Banksy was living! (I was shooting his early works in Bristol in 2002!
I got married and started to take photo of Graffiti.)
My husband is disabled (why they don’t pay me? WHITE!)
They didn’t pay (female photographer, her husband is disabled, I don’t want to write about it but…)
The council flat in Easton was full of SOMALIAN. (Me, I was only Japanese!, most of them are Black Somalians and the (white?) guy (who has mental disorder) and the white lady (who has some kind of mental illness)… when I look back the days in Bristol Easton Council flat,
I remember
Pastime Paradise by Stevie Wonder
Living in a pastime paradise
They’ve been wasting most their time
Glorifying days long gone behind
(THEYって誰だろう？
奴隷貿易やってたイギリス！
英国人(ロブさん！)relaxmax に払わない！(こういうの書いてて誰か「大人！」読んでたら本人に言ってあげないの？「病気のお母さんいる娘さんのお仕事に払うレーベル(メジャーは払うぞ！)とお仕事したら？」って！)
They’ve been wasting most their days
In remembrance of ignorance oldest praise
What is ignorance?
(Why none can’t change the world? I mean…why “THEY” can keep “not paying, racism!” kind of world?
In 2002, I took photo of BANKSY EASTON “it’s all gone now” (and someone sell my print “as his art”.
Why “THEY” didn’t stop him and tell him? Do you know who “he” is!? Banksy’s friend??? Santa’s ghetto? If you find “this book=”PERFECT VIEW FROM THE WINDOW” at KYOTOGRAPHIE PHOTOBOOK FAIR” you might read this… (letter?)^_^
“It’s not allowed to sell relaxmax’s art saying “this is my(L’s) art”!!!!
relaxmax’s marriage life! Her husband is disabled! She lived in council flat in Easton. Her husband is art support teacher at Filton College. Don’t sell Teacher’s wife’s (relaxmax) art saying this is “L’s art (lie!)”!!!!
(J used to be an art support teacher for People with special needs at Filton College!)
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WHO are they? (Do you know? If you are interested… pls use “AUTO TRANSLATE!” I wrote in Japanese about ignorance haha!)
Dispensation (社会のシステム？神の恵み？)
Isolation
Exploitation (世界に搾取というものがなければ！「そんな英語=えくすぷろいっとめんと」覚えなくていいのに)
Mutilation 不具、、、(旦那さんをそう呼ぶかな？生まれつきの「身体」！私もかけたなにかはある)
Mutations (社会における変異ってなんだろう？隔離？)
ハッカーがネットをアタックする？
そしてイランではネット使えないの？
Miscreation (、、、奇形？それより)「KGが写真祭としてみすくりえいと？」したものってなんだろう？
YOU and ME?
Confirmation…to the evils of the world この偽本を「KGのブックフェアで見つけた人」は、、、confirmできた？
I was listening to hiphop when I was a high school student (ATCQ dígable planets..but WU-TANG (I haven’t listened to ) I was listening to KASSA’s C.R.E.A.M… and listened to original (PV!)
It reminds me of…ah kinda thug life in Easton Council flat!
バンクシーと一緒にやってたラザリデスに私の作品 “It’s all gone now”をかってに売られて困ってる！KGやってる夫妻ならJR知ってそうだけど！JRのロンドンショーを2004年に最初にやったラザリデス！(さんたずげっとー)
https://note.com/relaxmax/n/n373f9e978c62
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日本の90年代の高校生
世界史は選択制だった(今は？)
しかも！
奴隷海岸は
教えてなかった。。。
We (Japanese high school students in the 90s) learned about “Age of Discovery” but not all student, some chose to learn Japanese history (not world history). So they may not know about “Slave trade” or “Slave coast”.
Where is Slave Coast?
( Do you know? 京都の高校生は知ってる？イマドキはネットでぐぐると、、、？写真祭のお客さんは？ブックフェアにくる人は知ってる？)
When British arrived, apparently they found the mahogany grew abundantly in Belize, which were used for high-end furniture, and they made profit from selling them. British themselves didn’t cut mahogany, they brought slaves from Africa. As a result, there are quite a few Black in Belize. Their ancestors were brought from Africa (some are SOMALIAN) by British around that time. (Auto translate from NOTE)
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連れてこられたソマリアンは
ベリーズで！
マホガニー切ってた！
Somalians had to cut Mahogany in Belize.
I don’t know if they knew where they were going..(British took them to Belize!? from Africa!)
I found the page on the web (Asahi / Japanese newspaper)
SOMALIA = Plantation (not slave trade) on the map… but SOMALIAN was there! as slave cutting Mahogany! so it says “SOMALIAN” on the black boy’s second boat…?!
I asked Sam (my husband’s friend, he is a cyclist living in Easton) why many Somalians lived here (in council flat)?
Sam said “because of slave trade” (prob he didn’t know about plantation in Somalia?)
In the 1990s, Somalians came to the U.K. as asylum seekers?
… and “this vintage table” made of mahogany?
I don’t know much about…
When? or
I just know it’s quite old one.
Antique?
(My ancestors?
Somalian old men?
Cutting mahogany in Caribbean and.. this table is here?)
“The window” (photobook? Where is Belize? It didn’t say the name of the country, secret?…somewhere on the Caribbean)
Library in Bristol, UWE? Do they still have it? (The Earth is not dead yet in 2080 in the novel, Bristol is not 123.8F (51C) but quite hot EARTH…Mecca?)
You know Oxfam?
They sell “FAIR TRADE chocolate” but…
(Where? Oxfam? What is Fair Trade?)
So this chocolate is… (not FAIR TRADE one, just from TESCO or somewhere?)
and THIS MAHOGANY DESK is…(not FAIR TRADE one?)
…and “THIS CD : GOOD ENERGY RSD” released in 2009? Punchdrunk? 4080 Label? Bristol? Smith? Rob Smith Dub?
“Is this CD NOT FAIR TRADE?”
Coz
It’s not Black (she is Japanese, Asian)
It’s not Somalian cutting Mahogany (she took photo, she designed)
Sugar cane? (It was not FAIR TRADE? TEA? SUGAR? “West India sugar boycott”)
Is there social movement in London?(not in Bristol?)
So BRISTOLIAN didn’t know about social movement in London (or Sugar cane is NOT CD?)…THEY IGNORANT?
Who are they?
THEY made relaxmax SLAVE?
They made relaxmax slave and made CD in 2009? People were dancing? DUBSTEP? At Glastonbury fes or… were they really ignorant? or just NOT HUMAN? (humanity?)
(The BLACK Somalian boy tried to listen to CD, released in 2009 Bristol, old one, 79 years ago?)
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To keep them in control was not difficult.
Controlled dance, (not knowing what kind of slave trade “THEY” did)
Dance till your death.
Glasto?
You knew? and had “HAPPY DANCE”? Not IGNORANT just ignoring something REALLY IMPORTANT TO MUSIC!
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My ancestors were cutting Mahogany? not Sugar cane?, the black SOMALIAN BOY thought…
Slave trade and Belize?
…so Smith died years ago?
Old CD “Good Energy 2009″? DUBSTEP?
You know nothing if you just listen to music, don’t you?
What is Slave? Who are slaves? (Mahogany? Somalian? CD? relaxmax… not sugar cane so “THEY” didn’t know?)
You know who you are? (Do you know who were slaves? “THEIR NAMES”?)
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Do you know this word “You know who you are”?
Originally,
Smith (not BLACK, Smith and Mighty) said to IKUE,
“You know who you are”
I heard…
(I didn’t know but is there?
Written somewhere?
“You know who you are”)
CD?
Good Energy?
(Credit? Where?
…so Smith has gone and relaxmax couldn’t get in touch with?
“THEY” didn’t write “HER NAME relaxmax”?.. (coz they thought relaxmax was SLAVE so they don’t have to credit her NAME!?)
Not written “NAME”?
They (who didn’t know West India sugar boycott social movement in LONDON!) dance?
Smith was playing?
The music? Good energy?
DUBSTEP 2009?
(AI: The West India sugar boycott was a major 18th and 19th-century grassroots campaign where approximately 300,000 Britons refused to consume sugar produced by enslaved people in the West Indies.)
Shady labels? 4080?
We Out Here (Noah? How much were their wedding rings? They made relaxmax slave as well? How much did Mr.and Mrs.Ball paid to wedding photographer and not paying relaxmax? ah WHITE and music? Did they really love music?)
“In Control” was not difficult?
Reggae is from Jamaica (many Jamaican live in Bristol, so reggae music is popular there.)
Bristolian Smith (white! male! slave trader!) was playing reggae!? How come! Smith made slave and played reggae! What a white!
To keep them in control was not difficult. (1984? 2080 now!)
Smith was playing with a hooker on the island and told relaxmax and her mother tons of lies “I don’t even have POTATO money..” (but Smith had money to play with go go girl! Flight money?)
Smith was crying and told relaxmax “I didn’t do anything hurt you” (he meant he didn’t have sex with hooker? Potato?)
NO REDEMPTION SONG
Smith played for 311 FUKUSHIMA TSUNAMI benefit?
No electricity? Nuclear disaster?… and “They (white and Korean male shady label and slave trader?)” made relaxmax exposed to radiation!? (… and Korean and Bristol WHITE made money? Korean brought up his kid with “THAT MONEY” (and not paying relaxmax?!?!)
REDEMPTION SONG by Bob Marley
Old pirates, yes, they rob I (relaxmax’s photo? for free!?)
Sold I to the merchant ships (shady label ZETTAIMU!?), ah
Minutes after they took I
From the bottomless pit
But my hand was made strong
By the hand of the Almighty
We forward in this generation, yeah
Triumphantly
Won’t you help to sing
These songs of freedom?
‘Cause all I ever have
Redemption songs
Redemption songs
Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery
None but ourselves can free our minds!
Have no fear for atomic energy
(Lier Smith played this song?
…so better to have fear for atomic energy?)
‘Cause none of them can stop the time
(2011.3.11 “THEY” didn’t pay relaxmax for years?)
How long shall they kill our prophets
(Prophet relaxmax? You mean? They tried but she survived.)
While we stand aside and look?
Yes, i’m saying it’s just a part of it
We’ve got to fulfill the book
Won’t you help to sing
These songs of freedom?
‘Cause all I ever have
Redemption songs
Redemption songs
Redemption songs
Bristolian prob knew about GAZA(so Smith made mixtape?…Smith had that kind of “Humanity”… “THEY” didn’t know about SLAVE?( Mahogany cutting Somalian or relaxmax? Photo? Design?)
(Some can read in Japanese, but if it’s not written in English, many people don’t know about…but some could use “auto translation”? )
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You know who you are
The reason why there was no name on CD credit… (Smith had wife, relaxmax was not WIFE!?)
In 2008, Outlook fes in Croatia!? They made “NOT WIFE” slave!?
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What is slave?
You know who you are? (Do you know who was the slave?)
Where?
“The word” written where?!
Mahogany? Sugar cane? Social movement in London (not in Bristol) … but it was about “sugar” not about “CD (design photo artwork)”..
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Her name is IKUE
You know who you are?
Her wedding ring was a pound! (…and “THEY” made relaxmax slave!? How much were their rings!?)
In Kyoto,
“They” had wedding ceremony and party (How much was it, all together!? Shimogamo shrine!? 3 times!? Bride changed her dresses and “THEY” didn’t pay relaxmax!? How much were clothes all together!? White KIMONO? White wedding dress? IRO UCHIKAKE? (And two more! 2jikai? 3jikai?). “THEY” spent such amount for “clothes” and didn’t pay relaxmax!? (Ah.. they made relaxmax slave!!!) .. KYOTO is that kind of CITY!, did you know?
How did they teach art uni students in Kyoto!?
Are their “Spose” disabled?
Why univ in KYOTO didn’t teach kids to pay photographers (relaxmax) money! How much were their rings? How much did they spent for their honey moon?
..and it’s not only one wedding! (4!? All together?!)
relaxmax didn’t wear any “WHITE WEDDING dress” (but “THEY” made relaxmax slave! Her shoes were from a charity shop for 4.99 quid. relaxmax’s mother didn’t see IKUE’s wedding dress!
(だけど、、、3回も！？お着替えしたの？フォトグラファーrelaxmaxに払わない結婚？そんな京都でいいの？1000円ぐらいの古着の靴を履いてウエディングドレスは着てないブリストルの結婚！そういうrelaxmax に写真のお金払わないような「京都の学生」！だった彼ら、、、「もっとちゃんと教育して！」この写真祭は「教育の機会」になってるの？、、、払わない人種差別は続いている)
Slaves？ Somalian？ Council flat in Easton Bristol where many Somalian and relaxmax and her husband lived .. her marriage days in Bristol. This is KYOTO ( “THEY” didn’t pay relaxmax and how much were their rings?) This is Kyotographie ( “They” could teach with their photo fes?, don’t they?)
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フォトグラファーとしては、、、
relaxmaxって誰？
ジャイルス・ピーターソンの運営するレーベルBrownswood Recordingsからデビューのホセ・ジェイムスはrelaxmaxの撮影した東京デビューLIVEの写真にほれ込み、「自分のデビューアルバムに写真を使いたい」と絶賛。
スミスアンドマイティのロブスミスのソロ「GOOD ENERGY」「GO IN A GOODWAY」「MIX WORK IN DUB」「SKY BLUE LOVE」のアルバムカバーの印象的な写真作品を創造した。(デザインもやったやつはやったよ)彼女はまた、英国ブリストルイーストンのバンクシーの壁を撮影。
写真作品は、KYOTOGRAPHIE（日本 京都）で展示、本「Perfect View From The Window」はアルル国際フォトフェスティバル（アルル）、ICP(NY)所蔵。
relaxmax is a photographer artist based in Osaka Japan. José James who released his debut album from Giles Peterson’s Brownswood Recordings was so impressed by relaxmax’s photographs of José’s Tokyo debut, he praised and said “I want to use relaxmax’s photos for my debut album “The Dreamer”. relaxmax designed and made art works for the album covers of Rob Smith’s (of Smith & Mighty from Bristol) solo albums “GOOD ENERGY”(photo artwork design), “GO IN A GOOD WAY” (photo), “MIX WORK IN DUB” (photo), and “SKY BLUE LOVE” (photo artwork design). relaxmax also photographed Banksy’s early works, walls in Bristol Easton UK where relaxmax used to live ..her marriage days! relaxmax’s art works have been exhibited at KYOTOGRAPHIE, and her book “Perfect View From The Window” are at Arles International Photo Festival (France) UWE media center (Bristol UK), and in the collection of ICP (NY USA). (Auto translate)
relaxmax
宇山 郁恵
リラックスマックス
ウヤマ イクエ
Born in Osaka Japan.
Japanese
She met children in morocco, watching full moon rising from the dessert together…and they said “It’s tranquil here…relaxmax”
To heal the earth, I heal people with my photos.
It’s miracle to be ”here and now”.
Let our tru-self shine and live on this paradise Earth!
Following the magic of the nature,
Capturring the light and reflect it onto photographs.
Her camera is the catcher of the miracles.
Her photo book “Perfect View from the Window” is stored in International Center of Photography in NY.
prize : 2014 FUJI FILM PHOTO BOOK AWARD
publication : 2018 featured story HIMATSURI on LIFE magazine China
Exhibitions
2015 relaxmax on the road
2016 The Earth from the Star ship Lumen gallery KYOTOGRAPHIE KG＋
2016 BLUE SKY LOVE KYOTOGRAPHIE KG＋
2017 LOVE+LIGHT Kurama-dera temple
KYOTOGRAPHIE KG＋
2018 HIMATSURI KYOTOGRAPHIE KG＋
2019 Rencontres d’Arles
“Perfect View from the Window”
photo book showcasing in Arles
2021 10-on-02 Humburg Osaka VR exhibition
workshop : 2018 Finding Your Vision workshop with Alex Webb (Magnum photos) and Rebecca Norris Webb in Oaxaca, Mexico
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8曲目
Take it easy, my brother Charlie
なんとなく
好きだったので
Eu canto a fantasia Eu canto o amor, eu canto a alegria Eu canto a fé, eu canto a paz Eu canto a sugestão Eu canto na madrugada Take it easy my brother Charles Pois eu canto até prá minha amada Esperada, desejada, adorada
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10曲目
Be my baby
ヴァネッサも好きだったなー、ティーン！(、、、もう彼女の子供の世代が、、、そのぐらい時間経つってこと！^_^)
Love is just like a flower, baby, it has to grow, yeah
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11曲目
あなたから遠くへ
17歳ってかんじだなー。。。^_^
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12曲目
You can’t always get what you want
(けっこうニコニコ楽しいアオハルおくってても！You can’t always get what you want 盗まれた本物の「写真の中の自分、17歳の私」は、、、楽しそー！
I’ve been trying to fit everything in, trying to get to the end before it’s too late, but I see now how badly I’ve deceived myself. Words do not allow such things. The closer you come to the end, (、、、でも今書いている「あの章」はある意味終わらない方がいいのかも？)the more there is to say.
The end is only imaginary, (どうかな？「単なる小説 満月」には終わりがある) a destination you invent(、、、「終わり」？えー？ないと思ってるから「あの数の偽！？」あんなもの作りまくるヒマある人類？？？ )to keep yourself going, but a point comes when you realize you will never get there. You might have to stop, but that is only because you have run out of time.(、、、死ぬこと？それとも？生きてる間は書いているdystopia 小説なのかなぁ？) You stop, but that does not mean you have come to an end.(小説自体が生まれ変わるとは書いておいたけど。。。)
小説からの引用
In someone’s glass was a bleeding man
Who was practiced at the art of deception?
Well I could tell
(ホントに？
「見える」ほうだから？
あんなに？？「偽」にされちゃうの？)
I’ve been trying to fit everything in, trying to get to the end before it’s too late, but I see now how badly I’ve deceived myself. Words do not allow such things. The closer you come to the end, (、、、でも今書いている「あの章」はある意味終わらない方がいいのかも？)the more there is to say.
The end is only imaginary, (どうかな？「単なる小説 満月」には終わりがある) a destination you invent(、、、「終わり」？えー？ないと思ってるから「あの数の偽！？」あんなもの作りまくるヒマある人類？？？ )to keep yourself going, but a point comes when you realize you will never get there. You might have to stop, but that is only because you have run out of time.(、、、死ぬこと？それとも？生きてる間は書いているdystopia 小説なのかなぁ？) You stop, but that does not mean you have come to an end.(小説自体が生まれ変わるとは書いておいたけど。。。)
小説からの引用
In someone’s glass was a bleeding man
Who was practiced at the art of deception?
Well I could tell
(ホントに？
「見える」ほうだから？
あんなに？？「偽」にされちゃうの？)
Robuchon in the kitchen, hassling some poor underling with a whisk to add “encore du beurre, du beurre, du beurre”.
バター、、、(好きだけど太っちゃう？？？)
It was the recipe that made Joël Robuchon, the Michelin-starred “chef of the century” who has died aged 73, famous and everyone else fat. There are several versions, with the restaurant’s famously consisting of a 2:1 potato to butter ratio. However, the British chef Tom Aikens – who worked for Robuchon in the early 90s – described how it took two hours and every ounce of the chef’s elbow grease to make, and included more butter than spud. There’s a video of Robuchon in the kitchen, hassling some poor underling with a whisk to add “encore du beurre, du beurre, du beurre”. The irony of course is that, five years ago, Robuchon gave up eating butter (and a few other things, as he told the New York Post) and lost 27kg (4st). Still, few dishes have kept a “the best in the world” title quite as consistently as this silken creamy mash
Postman in Japan and Tibet
(a postcard from Lasa to Osaka… who might have touched?)
My high school friend NOV and me.
A postcard in a shop in TIBET?(who might have touched it before it was sold…)
But Fake one has “NO finger print of NOV or TIBETAN ppl from 2001…”
、、、ポストカード書いた本人は「本物」知ってる(書いた文章の内容だけでなく)
NOV knew
REAL POTATE palace, she SAW it in 2001.
「本物のポタテ宮」
彼女は「見た」のではないかな？2001.
「あの頃のポタテ宮」をカラコルムハイウェイで！着いたことある人たちも！(飛行機で今はつく？)
Now We can get Tibet by airplane, but in 2001 (until when?) it was really difficult to get.
The answer to…
“I wonder what I will be doing when I become 24″
relaxmax on the road
24歳
オアハカの遺跡、ヤグールへの道(アレックス・ウエブはオアハカ今年も行ったかな？
2018年にもrelaxmaxがいた、あの道！「on the road」！)
relaxmax on the road to Ruin Yagul 2000, I was 24!
(The print I sent… do you think “THIS IS REAL PRINT”???)
(高校時代の「本物プリント」
そんなの盗むたいの？
けっこーなヘンタイ？？？)
My photos from TEENAGE, high school girl photos are also stolen and they left fake prints! (I sent you one “FAKE HIGH SCHOOL DAYS, IKUE 17, me in 大阪女学院 uniform with my friends photo!… one of the girls is IKUE! :)
…and
“It’s all gone now!”
I took the wall photo (of Banksy) in Easton Bristol, Nov 2002, just before I got married!
Thinking about the letter arriving :) (そしてポストで見つけた「あの封筒」^_^)
- Time is born in SPACE!
A letter is traveling this universe from America! to Japan:).
Space in our heart for a letter writing!
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English version
INADEQUATE? / 英語で書くこと(あの日見た写真にはうつせない「なにか」)
I saw something None can photograph…it’s TIME!
the day you find out why
届いた写真を見て、思い出したあの日の「満月」モロッコ メルズーガ
I just remembered “MOON RISING in Morocco! 2001 Merzouga”!, when I opened your letter…!
I never saw the moon like THAT!
Once in a lifetime experience!
THAT MOON! SOOO HUGE!
Moon rising from the DUNE!
…and I never saw it again! (Will I? Don’t know… it’s too special days in my LIFE!)
I never saw it again, but if I go back there…”MOON is there! Once a month? Fullmoon rising! I can experience again! …but Will I be “same relaxmax”? … I will be somebody else? Or… I was with my future husband! in 2001!
Something I never can! (take photo of…)
Time itself! (Time has already passed… just like the passing view from the BUS window !)
It’s only in my heart! …some scenery in me!
I can’t take photo of passing TIME! (coz it’s already passed! Just like the view from the bus window…! It’s already gone!)…but I CAN!
I CAN write about it here :)!
(this is why I live “HERE”!)
砂丘からあんなに大きな満月が登る
あんなのあの時しか見たことない！
あの「大きさ」満月！
は写真には写せないもの！(カメラの)機材の話だけじゃなく。
Camera is not “quick” enough…INADEQUATE?
Camera is not quick enough to catching the passing TIME…sometimes! :)
TIME!
「あのバスから見た銀色に光る砂漠の砂」
とか
「通り過ぎてゆくfuneral」
とか
バスの中から眺めていた過ぎてゆく景色とかも一緒！
写真に写せないものってやっぱある！
心の中にある いくつかの景色
WORDS TEND TO BE INADEQUATE
って ソスから届いた封筒には書いてあったのだけれど、、、
思い出したのは
あの 砂漠の満月の「大きさ」
写せないもの 写真には写らない「あの大きな満月」！
あの砂漠でしか見たことないような大きな満月が登る！
そして、、、バスから見た、過ぎ去ってゆく景色とか
時間と風景
変わってゆく「時」
バスの車窓から見る流れてゆく「写せないなにか」は、、、
本当は 言葉で言い表せるなにかなのかもしれない
INADEQUATE? この「言葉」で思い出した「写真に写せない」なにか、、、
− From Minneapolis Minnesota
To Kitahorie4 Osaka
Space and distance!
A letter from the place I’ve never been!
- Space in my Heart as well!
A letter has a space in me!
Thinking about the letter arriving :) (そしてポストで見つけた「あの封筒」^_^)
- Time is born in SPACE!
A letter is traveling this universe from America! to Japan:).
Green tea 月ヶ瀬かな？
Houji tea 京都のやつ
Genmai tea
Matcha
Matcha au lait
SOBAcha (長野のやつ美味かった)
凍頂烏龍茶
茉莉花茶 blooming tea
Original blended Herb tea
Roouibos
Mint tea
verveine au lait
feels strange to go back to my high school where I spent somewhat difficult my teenage as BODY LIKE CHILDREN (=原発性無月経 I never had first period so no blood at all… no under hair or…)
I used to be
大阪女学院 high school student
just like “みんな=everyone”!
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I wanted to be like “みんな=everyone”.
School girls in their uniforms like “みんな=everyone”…
What is “NORMAL” ふつう？
What is “みんな=normal”?
I know
I’m different from others
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I am ME
We never understand each other
If We are in same uniforms,
I am so different from
what “We= みんな ふつう 生理がある teenage girl ” are.
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So different body
I have
as teenage girl without blood…
分かり合えやしないってことだけを
わかりあうのさ
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Teenager によくあること！
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暗い夜に
痛いほど目を閉じた僕ら
What was “Dark night” kind of thing for Teenage girl ME?
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I knew
I Can’t BE
“just like NORMAL girl”…if I wear high school uniform…I kind of knew that.
I looked like “みんな=Everyone ” but…that kind of my HIGH SCOOL DAYS.
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17,
I had sex check (DNA, I am FEMALE but no blood!) and started to take medication.
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Sure,
I am Okay NOW!
I love myself
I love my body as it is
ACCEPTANCE
でも
今は平気さ
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I was kind of serious
I wanted to know
WHAT is meaning of LIFE? (my body without blood)
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I couldn’t find the meanings
as TEENAGE melancholy…( just LIKE YOU! Haha!)
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There’s no meaning to LIVE
(…
nihilism
in
TEEN BODY without blood )
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To be a GIRL without blood.
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And I survived! :)
I accepted something really difficult to accept…
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TO LIVE as it is
TO LOVE myself
TO LOVE my teenage body without blood
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I am different
I am relaxmax
I LOVE my body
I LOVE what I am
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I will be 50 next year,
still
I sometimes find myself
like… I am 17
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GIRL as 50
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17
I was reading a lot.
I liked my LIBRARY at Osaka Jogakuin high school (THANK YOU MAMA! I love YOU!).
I tried to find
“MY BOOK!”
… dates, when I first met my SPECIAL books at high school library…but probably all books had gone… (something new! Not the one I read :()
CIEN Años
Locked Room
Narnias
Newromancer
Or…
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Now I’m writing
“JUST A CYBERPUNK 満月 full moon”.
In this novel I cited a lot…some novels and musics are…I met when I was a high school girl…:)
(If Alec is reading here and dosn’t want to read before receiving a letter from relaxmax… it’s NOT INTERNET LETTER haha! ….better not to read below…)
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Hello Alec kunアレック君,
relaxmax is a happy girl! (Not “him” hehe)
I am writing a “dystopia novel 満月” but…I am a happy girl haha!
I just turned 50!
11th Feb was my birthday!
I never thought what it will be like “50 year old IKUE”… but I guess I am just ME!
I was kind of bit … (thinking about becoming 40! but…), I was too busy curing myself …to have a happy healthy life, to overcome my side effect(antibiotics), so I didn’t have time to think about?
Special feeling that was…
now I am 50! …but I almost forget about my age!
Am I different from TEENAGE era? prob, Yes and No!:)
I wrote “a fictional letter to ALEC 24 from IKUE17″, you might have read on my website, but I might (?!) send you “fictional letter” as well…
It was long one than I thought( I don’t really like my hand writing haha!) ,mmm…
Anyway!
Here’s my “real replay letter to Alec”.
In my fictional letter (from IKUE 17 to ALEC 24),
I cited Mark Twain
“The two most important days in your life are the day you were born, and the day you find out why.” Mark Twain
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The day I find out why…I don’t know yet, I’m just a 17 year old girl in Osaka. (in fictional letter…)
The day will come?
Alec, do you already know “the day”?
Why do I live here on this planet Earth?
What’s the meaning of my LIFE?
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“The two most important days in your life”
the day I was born
11 Feb 1976
and
the day I find out why
Now I’m in my 40s(when I was writing fictional letter but now I’m 50!)
…I don’t know exactly “when” was “THE DAY”, but…
I’ve already found out why!
Why do I live here on this planet Earth?
It’s in my photos, in my Novel!
You can find out “HERE”! (…”here (my website!)” My words, my photos… but hackers keep hacking :()
…
I wrote “I don’t know exactly when”, but now I received your letter and photo so I chose which photo to send…
It’s
Fullmoon rising in Merzouga, Morocco 12.30.2001
I don’t remember when I thought “… ah I want to take “MORE” photos (I kind of remember it was on the bus, Morocco somewhere, guess I was alone (before I met my ex husband?) …
I chose my name “relaxmax” as a photographer!… it was just after watching fullmoon rising! (I got my new email add “relaxmax2002″!)
So that’s the story!
How I become “relaxmax”!:)
I was watching fullmoon rising in the dessert, and they said “it’s tranquil here…relaxmax”.
So here is the photo (of Moroccan boys and fullmoon!)
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please email me to
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hello@relaxmaxontheroad.com
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(It’s better ” BEFORE” its published or RELEASED or… You can’t sell my PRINT! without my permission haha! this message is for someone who already ( kind of )STEEL! my PHOTOS! and DESIGNs!
Born in Osaka Japan. Japanese She met children in morocco, watching full moon rising from the dessert together …and they said “ It’s tranquil here … relaxmax”
To heal the earth, I heal people with my photos. It’s miracle to be ”here and now”. Let our tru-self shine and live on this paradise Earth!
Following the magic of the nature, Capturring the light and reflect it onto photographs.
