ENGLISH ONLY version is here ( 日本語 version )
”It’s ALL GONE NOW” 2002
I photographed this photo back in 2002, where I used to live( Easton Bristol)
Closest artwork by BANKSY from my flat…
It’s ALL GONE NOW !soon after I took this photo…this is WHY I started to take photos of Graffiti Bristol ;)
This is how I started documenting Bristol trough my own eyes and lenses…
I will upload my archives sometime in the future…!(the link below (flickr) is disabled now… I’ll update some other time..
” Graffiti Bristol : I LOVE YOU BRISTOL!” 2002-2017?or…
before instagram age, showing photos for EYE PLEASURE! ( not for Free use… ;( )
I remember last visit to Bristol was 2017( just for a week) and took only 1 photo… ( then did I upload that photo??!!
after I moved back to Bristol, I’ve been to Bristol 2005, 2006, 2008, 2009, 2010, 2011, 2013, 2015,and 2017!
“TAKE MORE PHOTOS, SHOW MORE PHOTOS”
the word I got from the lessen in 2002 winter at the course from BRISTOL PHOTOGRAPHIC SOCIETY
I haven’t added these photos of BANKSY (what I have in my HD,films etc…) to AMANA images ( some EARLY WORKS are I ONLY have! coz it’s all gone NOW) so please contact me if you want to USE!
NOT VIA TANGENT BOOKS!!!!
Why theyTangent Books didn’t PAY me?
MY LIFE IS NOT FREE TO USE
I have credit but why they just re-print ( first copy was 6000! it says in the book (first edition? ,,, then now 5th edition!! )
and sell ( for their money? some RARE photos are by me …)
they never sent me copy ( i only have 2007 hard cover, Tangent Books never contacted me for 15 years?)
NOT FREE!)
I Have NOT told company that ” YOU(tangent books) CAN USE
ALL MY PHOTO FOR FREE
FOR ANYTIME ( or length(2007- onwards )? or any edition? or any format ( books? or ) …what I should describe in ENGLISH?)
PLEASE PAY ME FIRST ,
OTHERWISE, I DON’T WANT MY PHOTOS ( which I sent to CHEBA!)
on tangent books ‘s any BOOKS !
https://www.amazon.co.jp/Banksys-Bristol-Home-Sweet/dp/1910089931/ref=pd_lpo_14_t_1/356-9926583-1825804?_encoding=UTF8&pd_rd_i=1910089931&pd_rd_r=0df75b61-9542-4b10-84ce-38a4d73612b8&pd_rd_w=lCmLZ&pd_rd_wg=ukO1T&pf_rd_p=cb2cef9d-b0a3-4b58-a575-45abfc5e07e8&pf_rd_r=8S1JTXDJDFSNS9P2W8WS&psc=1&refRID=8S1JTXDJDFSNS9P2W8WS
like this one
or any other editions! ;)
I don’t know this author , I haven’t met him, I haven’t asked from him ” can I use? “
PAY ME FIRST 2021
these photos from IXY film is my personal memory ;) happy days in Bristol !
photo taken while I was crying... ( why Tangent Books didn’t …didn’t…) with my i phone 7 red ( I don’t really care about lighting at all.. crying crying)
I don’t know why it’s so pinky(lol) memory from 2002, back in the day I just started to live in Bristol for new marriageI haven’t open this for years…! ( more than 15? years? or…) , then I just found it from the box. lol, these two guys are my fav ! from relaxmax flickr photos ( about 850 photogrphs 2002-2016?or… 14yeas or more I’ve been photographing and uploading photos on flikr ) ” GRAFFITI BRISTOL” pages where we share EYE PLEASURE!
this pinky one, it was like it was, when I got it as print in 2002 (after development where did I order? snappy snap? or somewhere elese? )
I scanned in 2005 ( and try my best at that time to make into “white” not pink wall) with CANON ?
I sent this photo to Cheba in 2007? ( it was on flikr so he asked me via flickr mail…when have he left? didn’t know.. )
NO PAY AT ALL
Tangent Books
JUST USE MY PHOTOS for different editions!
NEVER PAY ME!
( till 2021 for years! when was 2nd edition? they didn’t send me…so I didn’t know…)
I didn’t know the name on cover of 5th edition ( name has changed from the BOOK BANKSY’S HOME SWEET HOME I have (CHEBA asked my old place in Osaka’s address?) hard cover 2007) , I have never talked with the person who’s name on 5th edition’s cover…)
I was living and shooting with my eyes and lenses in EASTON BRISTOL… I had to live HARD LIFE in hard flat (where Somalian boy throw a stone at me ) because my husband at that time was DISABLED(and ME! I Can’t tell what is 欠けているかhere…) ;( …. so please give me money for my photos from that age in BRISTOL!
写真を撮る人たちを大切にできていない！。。。
ALL PHOTOGRAPHER LIVES MATTER!
Tangent Books
PAY me (relaxmax)
0 pounds for 15 years…
and how much they earn? or how many books they have sold? without informing me…(didn’t know they are still making books with my photos?they never spoke to me… ;(
I wanted to know
WHICH photo of mine have they ? How many on which page?
they didn’t tell which one is by who so I kind of hurt … ( didn’t know… if they are rich enough to pay me... in 2007, did they have enough money? or if they have printing money for 2nd edition, I WANT MY PAY FIRST, otherwise NO PHOTO ON YOUR BOOKS. (why they don’ t tell me they print next edition? so I Had NO CHOICE at all…)
my photos are not VIA TANGENT BOOKS
(I’m on contract with different company from 2013? or14) , however….
first edition 6000? then how many have they sold??? ???????????? Pounds??
https://open.spotify.com/track/2Wn1qhsBGHrpJTDfmiLyPx?si=b2dd8fe9230c4463
ALTAR KHAN
( poor IKUE stay poor I want to ALTAR）
PHOTOGRAHS are PART OF MY LIFE!
MY LIFE IN BRISTOL
MY EARLY AGE WITH FILM ( and degital as well… my camera history as Photographer ;D)
Marriage, then GOT JOB I was making sandwich, making good Latte, got Social Insurance Number, living in Bristol, as foriner sometimes hursh memories in Easton Stone throw , my husband at that time is Disabled… ( He lived in Council flat, so I had no choice… ) Council flat 250 is this POVERTY? these photos are MY LIFE in Bristol.
I just found out 2 weeks? ( around 1st March 2021) that, they already have 5th edition… ( if they have printing money, why they didn’t pay me first? are they user? 泣泣泣 they don’t treat me in good way, MY FILM PHOTO , photographs, LIFE, copyright… MY LIFE IS NOT FREE!)
Otherbook, they have used my photos (Naked Guide to Bristol … Tangent books are they small? publisher? or how I should discribe? are they rich at that time?(200? when was it? before 2007) I was thinking they didn’t sell enough to pay me? but if they have money to print… please pay me first!!! it’s TOO LONG? … ahhh and I didn’t know it’s already 5th edition? ( maybe photo is different now? don’t know… book Cheba sent me was 2nd edition? ( with his autograph? drawing nec-tie ojisan ;D))
は私の写真載せないでね！
I have my photos in own album is better than in somebody’s book…
( back in 2002! CANON IXY! prints from APS film which I can’t buy any more!)
Herverts（２００２？ or ２００３？）
I love bread from them! it wasn’t too close, so I feel happy when I CAN GET BREAD from them …good memory.
I MISS YOU （2016?or..2015??or…）
R.I.P in the CITY 2002 or 2003?
This is my PERSONAL TREASURES ( IXY film prints! old and fainted… ME ONLY HAVE!)
Graffitis in the city, often for “R.I.P” for somebody…
DO I have to buy OLD editions of their book in secound hand book shops?
I knew now, there is Japanese edition ( and saw my name on it, and some photos inside….) but TANGENT BOOKS not inform me… ( I’m only Japanese in photographer’s names on your books…) ;( feels lonely now…
PLEASE CONSIDER>>>>
2007 till 2021,
some photos are ONLY ME HAVE
( if I search on internet, I could find photo of same WALL, but maybe they took 10 years after I photographerd?,more faint, different COLOUR!….relxaxmax was there!
私の人生の一部！！タダじゃないです。。。
MY LIFE (photograph) IS NOT FREE TO USE
(my early works… is by APS film and Slide films VELVIA! (only 20 or 40?) ... (it’s expensive for me… ) so why they use those for Free? for such a long period? ( 2007-2021?? or even more??)
I don’t shoot with FILMS anymore( I want to do that again ;) if Tngent Books pay me! ) , price of FILM and development of FILM is cheaper in Japan at that time( compare to Bristol) I learned where is good to develop in Bristol …;) ( sometimes, I used cheap development ( is it from Tesco? or…? almost 20 years ago!)
写真を撮る人たちを大切にできていない！。。。
ALL PHOTOGRAPHER LIVES MATTER!
WHAT IS PHOTOGRAPH?
who wants to use, ALWAYS PAY ME! its RIGHTs
(with those money YOU pay me, I can buy NEW LENSE, I CAN REPAIR my equipment, to continue have CAMERA ( some makers, dosen’t exit anymore… do you know?
GOOD BOOK , GOOD CREATION, GOOD PHOTOGRAPHS, GOOD MONEY can make CULTURE ALIVE!
I CAN EAT, I CAN HAVE SPACE for sleep, work, with the MONEY YOU PAY …IF Tangents Books PAY ME!
I CAN TRAVEL, I CAN TAKE MORE PHOTOGRAPHS…IF Tangents Books PAY ME!
I CAN BUY BOOKS, I CAN LEARN MORE…IF Tangents Books PAY ME!
CAN YOU SEE THIS? CIRCLE OF CULTURE… what I WANT TO KEEP ALIVE!
えーとTangent Booksさんあんま文化全体、見える人ではなかったかなー？、、、
this is what I want to BUY (if people… all people who used my photo …have paid me..泣）もちろんTangent Books if paid me… 15 years no pay is too long….I want fair money for my film photos! ( and some degital ones?)
Mark Power’s “Good Morning America”
( did I miss? or… if Tangent Books pay me, I could be in time for…?)
photofilmic MasterClass by Marc Power and Matt Black if Tangent Books if they have paid me…I CAN LEARN MORE!
POVERTY ( BRISTOL, EASTON)
where I used to live, I was in POVERTY ( me? or … that flat? (90 percent Somalian me only 1 in Japanese…),
something I can’t tell, something I can’t take photo of… if somebody else lived in same council flat,
probably they have different experience ( are they Japanese?( only me was Japanese stand out…) are they girl? )
probably they never have stone throw? like me? in Council flat?
歴史の一部、part of HISTORY
BANKSY EARLY YEARS
meets relaxmax
(new born birdy I I relaxmax , just started to learn film Camera …( she knew but she didn’t have education of using Camera before Bristol )
relaxmax’s flight in BRISTOL 2002-2004 ( just a little bit… in LIFE long journey…)
Stencil somewhere… “It’s all gone NOW!”
SEND ME BACK TO me, relaxmax,
MY PHOTOS ,
APS FILM PHOTOS, POSI( VELVIA) FILM PHOTOS, and other photos…
I AM AN ARTIST
I AM SELLING ORIGINAL PRINT
( not Banksy’s photograph print tho…)
why are you
USING ME? FOR FREE?
for… 15 years?!
(2023…so ah… since 2005 18!
“if you want to use any of the pictures please contact the photographer via Tangent Books”
I haven’t asked …. if they have asked me about this, I could say NO!!!!! ( but I had NO CHOICE…)
NOT via Tangent Books…. (Tangent Books never write to me about this or…)
”Much of Banksy’s early work on the streets of Bristol has been lost”
( is this word erased already? ) I saw somewhere ? amazon?
has been lost PHOTOGRAPHS of… MY LIFE ! is my treasure!!!
I Have NOT told company that ” YOU(tangent books) or who お支払いできる決定者？社長？ or who have used my photos for such a long period ( 2007 to ….2021? and??)
CAN USE
ALL MY PHOTO FOR FREE （というかだれに言ったら払ってもらえますか？正当にお金お支払いしたい方、どなたですか？お話したことない、誰か、お会いしたことない方ですか？） この本の中に名前ある人がそのあたり、お金払うことの責任者？だれ？
FOR ANYTIME ( or length(2007- onwards )? or any edition? or any format ( books? or other format??) …what I should describe in ENGLISH?)”
やっぱMAGNUMかっこいいフォトグラファー多いし好きなんだー！！！（写真家の権利を守る集団！！！）
アンリ・カルティエブレッソン、マグナムの創始者のうちの一人！やっぱ好きだしなー！
Paolloさんには、生やさしいものではない、メッセージをお伝えして、お会いできるよう飛びたいなー！先生マグナムだったのとオアハカだったから、ワークショップ受けたなー！ナショジオに憧れもあるしDavidAlanHarvey(オンラインコースもちょっとだけ受講。お写真の使用したお金、ちゃんと払ってくれるTangent Booksさんだったらもっと続けたなー、余裕で！余裕ある生活、大事！。他のフォトグラファーのサポート（本を買うこと、先輩たちから学ぶこと！）続けられる。一生学び続けること！！！ photofilmic のMasterClss 受けたいなー！Marc Power さんとMatt Black さん両方受けたい、、Tangent Books if they have paid me… or エリオット・アーウィット、彼が生きている間に一度はお会いしたいし（彼の部屋には天狗がいるんだー！）彼のプリントは買いたい！！、Tangent Books、私の写真にお金払ってくれていたら、すでに購入できてたなー！素晴らしい写真を！！！ あ、ブリストルといえばParrさんだけど、彼のだったらBeans Egg on Toast…あのイギリスぽい朝食のちっさいの！笑（ああいう朝食ってのも、イギリス住んで初めて学んだ。。。Greasy Spoonて言葉とか笑）彼の展示はラッキーにも、あそこでみたなー！あのへんの感じすき！；）
それわかってる？？（多分、わかってなさそーで自分だけよければ？みたいな文化は廃れてしまう。。。それ君達？ちガウ人？）
その写真に対して使用する（の何枚かさえ知らせず！！！）お金の話も向こうから全くしてもらえず（きちんとした会社？何枚か教えてこないし、２nd editionの話も何も知らせてこない。、、、その後いま２０２１年まで、たまたま本amazonで見つけるまで何も知らなかった！！！）2007年のとき、結局どれを使用したと連絡さえなく、どの大きさ？どこに（表紙か中身か？など）わからないと値段て決めれない、私は。
ちゃんと出版（別edition? 日本語とかペーパーバックとか本人にはTangent Booksからお知らせなかったなー、かってに別の判型？edition?別の著者？？？？って出して写真無断で使っていいの泣？と言うか本、のってたら送ってほしかったなー、どれにのっているの？) 出してるから、正当な金額くださいね。
数千まんとか１億とかにしよッカナー（冗談！笑）just a …lol
写真をCHEBAに依頼され、flckrメールで連絡もらい送ったのはもう15年?以上前、その間そんなにいろんなeditionあったのですね。。。（5th edition まで？）別のもの印刷代あるのなら、写真にもお金ちゃんとお支払いするフツーの会社？というか出版元？て日本語なのかな？（去年、２０２０年に 別 の5th edition?)とか、調べる訳でないとわからない！私、relaxmx、写真家、カメラマン！アーティスト側は。
YOU(tangent books)はカメラマンに支払いせずに儲けたかったのかな？まずは写真のデータ送り返して欲しかったけど、CHEBA(当時の？デザイナー）は持っていないらしい、会社？の人でなくなったのはいつか知らない。送ったのZIPかな？そのままありますか？送ってくださーい！（知らないうちに5th editionまで出ていて、特にどの写真！（使いたい）ときちんと言ってくれていなくて（最終使用枚数、嘘つかれそーで、というか、本当のことってなに？？。だってしらないうちにいろんなedition?) 傷ついてまーす。
どうすればいいのか、わからなすぎて、怖いので、著作権についてわかる弁護士？必要？探したい。
弁護士さん？お願いするお金、まず作らないと何もできない！！（そのお金もいま手持ちない貧しさなので、この本の人？写真のせているデザイン？つくった人？つかった人？印刷する人？お金やりとりできる人？写真にお金、私の写真と知っている人？誰か、私にフツーの写真の使用料を払いたいと思ってくれる、この本に関わった、決定権とかあり、喜んで、私をたすけてくれる人？？どこ？）
（CHEBAは手元に持っていなくても、会社？どこのパソコン？に(どのeditionも残してる？）印刷データと元の写真データ当然ありますか？どの人の写真を送ってもらったかとか、普通、誰からの写真かなどはさすがに別ファイルでわかりやすいのなら、すぐにでもrelaxmaxのみとり出して、送ってもらえる？？、メールで。）
ここ読んでね、と確かCHEBAには、言っておいたメールで！ だから
YOU(tangent books)
の偉い人？というかこういうことの決定権あってお支払い意思ある方、社長になるのかな？（写真に値段つけるのは、 I , relaxmax! の方が安全かなーというか弁護士さん、プロの方に助けてもらい、算出してもらったほうが安全かな、探します。。。英語できるかた、こういう海外の出版社が相手でもいける、おそらく日本人の、、、弁護士費用用意でき次第（I don’t want to stay poor…、だけど！I need money to ask…)）
CHEBAから返信で、もう会社で働いてない？かなんかで誰かのメール書いてあった。（その人写真に関して知ってる人？私のページ、どの写真とか教えてくれる？PDFかなにかわかりやすい？どうやったらわかる？ 私の写真の元データだれも持ってないの？どうやったらあの本、（というか別editionの著者は、写真ただと思ってる？？許可、私の写真、どれ？知ってる？本当のこと？ちゃんとお金、使用したものに対して、（あと長期、無料でないのに、無許可?でずっと出版し続けていたことに対して、、どういう金額かは著作権に詳しい人に決めてもらいます。）
だれだろう？単に会社？かなんか？の誰か？？なのかなコンタクト取るとテキトーに扱われたら怖いなー
というか私もこんな長い経緯をどう英語で書いたら、ちゃんと理解してもらえるかわかりません！
お金何年も払ってくれていない会社（2007年から2021年、一度もお支払い私、relaxmaxになし！！０円はヒドーーーーい！）に、フツー、、次のeditionからは使用禁止！ぐらいでないと危険かな？コンテンツ人の写真データどうやって持ってたの？誰でも見れるパソコン？持ち帰り勝手にされたりするの？（というか、前のガイドブックも入れたらもっとかな、、、いつだったっけ？とりえず（なんというかインディ？超大手のしっかりしたところ）ではなさそうで、そんなお金ない（売れてない？）から払えてなかったのかな？（と思ってたら、もうすでに５th editionだったので、さすがに払ってもらっていい）
写真？？？再配布とか、勝手にされない？
安全？な会社なのかな？ここ。。。
長く（２００７−２０２１）、お支払いする意思を向こうからの提示もなく、
（テキトーに今まで扱われてきて)
自分で直接話すより、安全を考慮したい。relaxmax、Artist, 写真家として、その作品自体も！テキトーに扱われてしまっていたのかな？と感じます。。。amanaに預かってもらった方が安全かな、と今後はその方向で調整中。。。（本当はこういうBANKSYの初期のレアなもの、（特にそれを売りたいと思っていたわけで、、、というか商売っ気、みたいな意味で）おあずけするとか、そこまで考えていませんでした。だけど、個人でやりとり、もう、絶対無理（信用、、、てナニ？）
こんな状況はARTISTとして辛いです！
あ、そういえば、知らないうちにもう一人
表紙に名前が増えてた。
(というか今もう一回見たら、増えるというより変更？？
ペーパーバック版？この著者とお話ししたこともなーーい泣
く！ それにもかってに使っちゃってるのかな？？）
フツー
本てそういうことあるの？著者変わったの？？（その人のメアド？CHEBAはくれたのかな？また違う人？ ）私全くしらない人で、その人こういう経緯、理解できる人？というか会社の人？であってる？？
anyway….
YEAR of photos of graffiti is WHEN I , relaxmax photographed ( not WHEN the artwork（the wall?, or …i don’t know what they call it by themselves ;D) is done!
BRISTOL ⚡︎ MASSIVE
B A N K S Y
One of my fav…! Bristol 200?
probably not in Easton Center area? You can find this photo (something like this) on their book ( 1st edition and 4th edition( japanese) and you can tell me other edition they might have used ?? without asking me?? crying crying …)
I love you Bristol! ;) 2004 Bedminster Skate board Park
I wonder how old they are now …! ;) (it’s been 17 years! )
This is where people learn their skill( they can practice? I guess…)
My friend just told me, where ” A LO T OF” graffiti are…!
I never been here , this was the first and last time while I was “LIVING” in Britol…
MILD MILD WEST with IXY Bristol 2002? or …
The YEAR is when I, relaxmax photographed ( not when BANKSY did it ! )
I took this piece several times ( 2002 with IXY(APS film) 2004 with Velvia (Fuji film) and later with my NIKON ( degital…)few times? maybe)
this one is prob with …? （ I have Virtical and Horizontal… it’s really special to have SLIDE on my room WALL…VELVIA slide before I LFET BRISTOL from my FIRST EVER BOUGHT SLR! no one can make it! ( me neither!, I have body but no lens i already sold…) and WALL is not SAME!) )
Bristol 2002
Just around the corner from my flat in Easron
this one is also
VERY FIRST FILM ROLE (APS) of MY GRAFFITI BRISTOL !
I was photographing not only graffitis, ( so mixed up memory… like just cloudy sky or… what I was looking trhough lens at that time? somewhere local, I don’t really go back after I moved out..
all my Bristol Street Art is on my flickr ( so CHBA knows my photographs , then he flikcr mail-ed me)
I knew where
These photos, I just went back with my camera to local areas because, I knew ( from my daily life , it’s not somewhere “oh I want to find” , I already knew) then took time (i mean… go out with Camera! before mobile phone age, do you always go out with your camera? I guess I wasn’t…) to photograph with my CANON IXY or NIKON.
After I moved back to Japan（20 years almost!）, I don’t really walk around those areas ( Easton, some harsh memory…from that age) , maybe 1 time, I try find the hole ( of ” it’s all gone now”) but I guess it wasn’t. looked like it, then I … ah my memory just came back ( and keep it secret in me!) somewhere local .
learned about BANKSY from book shop where Banksy’s screen print ltd100? sold ( I wonder why I didn’t buy??) , next to bicycle shop, Greenleaf book shop, It was before I got my own bicycle so I guess I just arrived Bristol summer 2002?) they sell “Existencilism” ( I didn’t buy from them ( later they sold out?) and got it from bolder’s ( it’s gone?… ) In Bristol, there is many good book shops…I don’t remember if I have ever seen BANKSY in the town before I read “Existencilism” …( maybe? maybe Old market st. one, I have seen?)
close to the one above! (prob same street kind… ) Bristol2002
Easton not too far from precision bombing? on the woody thing?
TAKE THE MONEY AND RUN with IXY APS film
これも、なんか撮ってて、後でflikrで見てくれた人が教えてくれてたっぽいなー。（知ってて行ってたっけ？）
なんでもかんでも、眼に映るものすべて、撮りまくってたうちの一枚な気もする笑
I guess, I just shoot anything, everything what I see (笑）, then someone taught me on flickr…? ”THIS IS B,,,”something like that?
近所の面白い壁 Bristol 2002
( with spray ) before STENCIL ;D! someone taught me? on flikr? (I don’t know when did …
IXY has 24mm and 48mm good to have it with me while going for a walk with my husband ( or boyfriend? ) at that time.
as WANNABEEEE BANKSY (lol)
I MIGHT SPREAD FREE GIFT print by relaxmax with signiture ( PRINT FROM APS film which has already GONE! ) somewhere!!! I maybe maybe print sometime in the future? maybe then leave it 10 years? ( for fade away colour) kind of PRINT ! like wine!
2002年当時のrelaxmaxのじぶんちの近所（Eastonのどこか、、これは屋根も面白い；D）
Not too far from my flat back in 2002 ( walking distance?)
Probably I was photographing this wall without knowing THIS IS BY …(I was just photographing street art in local areas…)
SOME LOCAL GRAFFITI
(多分、近所の面白い壁と思って写真撮っていただけで、BANKSYと知らなかったんじゃないかな、、撮影した時、特にBANKSYだけを撮影していたわけじゃなくって、いろんな面白いstreet artを撮影していた。多分後でだれかがおしえた？
なつかしー！やってたなーステンシル笑！あこがれてたんだ笑！！！（すっかり忘れている！）
I almost forgot…
while I was living in Poverty as foreigner ( council flat in Easton, my husband is disabled) , I try get the job at the cafe, ( was difficult but I got THE JOB! at the cafe 5 pounds per hour ( 4 pounds for transport 45 or 47 to Center from Easton! in winter time morning was still DARK not like in Japan, sometimes I cycle to the center in the dark (scary to use round about path way…in Easton) or I try walk longer and use different bus stop coz bus fee is cheaper( like 2 pounds? rtn? dont remember exactrly…) around 20 pounds per day… then I BOUGHT BOOKS FROM YOU, THAMES and HUDSON ( THE EARTH from the AIR ( gift ;D!) , STENCIL GRAFFITI, STREET LOGOS, Graffiti Brazil! ) so when I met Sanigar, my proposal was “my red WINDOW BOOK,small gift, easy to buy , cheap , children can ask their parents ” I WANT THAT!” )…Water stone(bookshop) is gone now…
This is not the one but something like this… round about path way…in Easton
I cycled in the dark during the winter to work ( cafe in the center)
so different life style compare to JAPAN… ( I don’t really have to scare cycle in the dark ( I mean for going to work kind of station, I lived, and now I live…)
I don’t remember, how safe, or how easy to take Street Art in local EASTON area or other areas ….in 2002 or 2003 or…,
If I carry big camera , I might stand out… ( I guess in this area , at that time One Japanese? ( and some other asian people ?) my flat was full of Somalian people) so IXY was good choice!
small! light, easy to carry ( and EASY TO HIDE! in my bag)
Probably it was OKay? ( no one taught me I mean my husband at that time could tell….something…!!!)
Bristol 2002
Bristol 2002
I took photo during the night
I like this rakuda! san ;) 2002?
I also have ” panoramic ” photos of Graffiti at home ;) ( IXY(film) can take panorama photo ! nowadays, we don’t really have that kind of .. small one! ;D I miss my IXY I still have body, but NO APS film Anymore…!)
fade away memories… 2002(?when I took ) ———–to ————-2021! ( when I just find the album!)
I like this one! It’s off Ashlay rd. ?
my husband at that time didn’t know or … how safe or how dangerous or… I was okay
But once, Police car stopped by me, I had camera, (SLR) big one, “(Camera , better to put in your bag) Better to leave! ( kind of word, not safe alert, about 18 years ago… its fainted memory, I don’t remember their word exactly but I DO remember I had big camera ) and I said,” I am not alone, I m with my friend ( my husband at that time were around) ” …but it was I guess if I AM ALONE or WITH SOMEBODY doesn’t matter…Probably, for my husband, it was Okay (not bad? kind of safe? i guess so we were there?) I just walk to him and said to my husband at that time, “I just been told, “BETTER TO LEAVE” ” （probably my husband at that time doesn’t know before Police advise…)
If I could’ve choose where to live, My choice is St.Andrews…(where my friend’s are…different vibes ;D easier to live… (no underground? path way to go to work in the dark and close to the park!) I had no choice ( cos my hasband at that time is DISABLED living in Council flat in Easton…CAR STOLEN from the carpark (and found somewhere? I almost forgot??…) stolen parts from the car… ( is this happening anywhere?) )
（I don’t know exactly… but I guess It’s better to listen their word…!rather than husband?)
Neighbourhood Watch … Ididn’t really know what this sign? means….at that time and when I searched now…it says
“help to prevent and tackle crime in your community” て、今見たら書いてあったけど。。。（どのぐらいのsafety?)
I forgot where I saw… alomst 20YEARS! ( now I’m far away Osaka, where was it?
BY THE WAY,
閑話休題。
I only have this with car… ;( Bristol 2002?
Later on, when I recall my memory, I guess…”OH! I CAN TAKE THIS WITHOUT CAR!”
few years later? prob with Degital SLR ( don’t remember when….so I try find somewhere from my hard drive) I don’t remember where that one is anymore tho…I only have this with car , do I ？
I, relaxmax photographed in Bristol 2004 18mm?
I just bought NEW CAMERA and LENSE ( in Japan! ) very expensive for me ! coz I was living in poverty in hard life flat with Disabled ME husband.!.. I didn’t really know dangerous or how … scary or… (for me, I had stone through…) until I came back and live in JAPAN… I sort of thinking at that time ,” this is U.K. this is England” ( not JAPAN) … but is this EASTON … it’s EASTON??!! and try to adapt? ( 我慢じゃないけど、、、何とかがんばってたよ。違う国に住むと、いろいろ自分の母国でないと、普段おこらない（石投げられるとか！、、、よっぽどトラウマみたい。）
Dont’t remember how much exactly.. but Brand new ( I had to ask my mum to send me , coz it was not in time for my flight…?)
Did it in ’97 PARAT OF MY LIFE AS LOCAL 2004
(somewhere … not too far from my flat in Easton (bicycle distance ..)…I found it on the way to shops(St. marks rd )？
I just found it with my OWN EYES and EARS! ( not really info I found on internet when I was living ( 2002とか）, and I didnt have internet access in council flat, so I had to go to local internet place ( to write my friends in Japan) or … to library…( We can use internet for free…) Now I can use internet anytime ( with my red I phone7…) so different…!
When I try search where Banksy’s peace are nowadays with internet ( I don’t remember street names any more.. it’s been almost 20 years… , I just KNEW where they are ( or were) from my life as local at that time) , I could find some info ( and photos) …I just found out, the PIECE ( of Banksy’s or ALL GRAFFITI or street art IN THE CITY) will fade away…fainted paint, different colour…! TIME IS ART.
I have selfie ( with this saying hello like “E.T.” ;D! probably on the way to birthday lunch with my husand at that time!
with IXY film, saying hello to this guy (I thought it was rat, but is it ,,,?) I found many fun in the city! dotted around!
photographed in 2003 ? with IXY? this is scanned or CD rom?
The print of IXY film’s colour is almost already gone… something new! something different! I don’t show you guys here… it’s only in my album… TIME (almost 20 years!) shows what is ART … NEVER REPETing thing, NOone Can immitate what I have in my album…Of course, I CAN’T make same print again…! ( aging .… just like wine!)
THAT fade out COLOUR showed me, relaxmax, WHAT IS TIME PASSING BY…
almost GONE!
fainted stencil…2002 Bristol 爆弾少女:)
OLD MARKET ST. When I found in 2002, it was already almost GONE!
This one is maybe one of the VERY FIRST ONE! I found in Bristol.
probably near my friend’s house ? ( I photographed 2006?)
probably near my friend’s house ? ( I photographed 2006?) my friend taught me?
WORDS stencil by BANKSY ( and the ant is by… ) I took this photo in 2005?or 2006
I didn’t know this is by BANKSY when I photographed…! but taught me ! ( arigato gozaimasu!)
これは撮影していたときは知らなかったけど FlickrでBANKSYだよと教えてくれた人がいて；）
（コロナ対策も長期的に見たら、、、何を選んだ方がいいのかな？）
NEAR WHERE I USED TO WORK 2006? Bristol
This piece is NEAR WHERE I USED TO WORK.…! (bottom of park street)BEFORE BLUE PAINT
I was making sandwiches ( 3F) watching Colston clock tower, making good coffee ( Wogan? I guess) serving White Tea to Nanns on Saturday after Bristol cathedral…people around the shop always queuing for buying their lunch .. ( It was fun to smile and Cheers! to them good to know local faces…! ) ALSO I learned the word ” TA” (means thank you ;D!)
Avery’s ( where I had photo exhibition from Morocco, Wine cellar they had since 17 century! I loved Dry white they sell! I always try find similar wine in Japan … !) My friend who is from Bath, said “ I can almost hear the sea from the photo…” ( good comment I DO remember…)
where I used to work, I could see Colston tower clock, ( I can check the time :D) I was happy working there… equal opportunity…! for Japanese British French Indian Irish…or..I can work with good condition! ( good to belong to the society…BRISTOL! …so important to “BE PART OF IT”…I can feel this way because I CAN WORK! at the cafe, I really LOVE! good sweet memories! I love pastries from them ( I still try make carrot cake I used to buy from WOODES CAFE! … where I used to belong! for a short period! but I got ETERNAL FRIENDS from my past good memories….! when I search, doesn’t change at all from the photo, maybe little bit of change? I do have photos from WOODES colleagues they gave me special gift! I do have( still blank inside ;D!) and I don’t know why I can’t take photo…of Owner and his colleagues ( lady… always handed in my money … it was nice feeling and after work, I went up I it’s steap hill … and I could buy WHAT I WANT! THANK YOU MY JOB! I FEEL I AM PART OF BRISTOL… after I GOT JOB! )
昔働いていたカフェ、６０年代からPARK STREETにあるお店！、ブリストルで初めて働いた場所；）のすぐそば。
サンドイッチ作って、コールストンホールのとこの時計眺めつつ。
コーヒーを入れて
お会計して「ありがとうございまーす！』とっても楽しく働いていた！
仕事やっとできるようになって、（社会への帰属感、最初の５、６ヶ月、VISAの関係で働くことできない！結婚後、VISA切り替えてやっと、労働！できるようになって！！）
そこで覚えたのは ”TA” (=Thank you ;D!、私は言ったことなかったけど、オーナーさんが教えてくれた、、、というか使っていたよ、その単語！）
日本に帰ってからも、そこでよく買っていた！（サンドイッチは無料！コーヒーとかも確か！ pastryのみ半額？かな！よくキャロットケーキを買っていた！）キャロットケーキ探したり、自分で焼いてみたり！
短いあいだだったけど、「一生のともだち」に出会えた！とても嬉しい！ご縁があった！
そんなの、そこにいた当時は何も知らない。（それこそ、何か運命の糸、織りなすタペストリー、、そういうのが結果的に、歴史と呼ばれる絵巻物？）
日本へ戻るチケット（１年オープンで買っていて）そのチケット使って日本に一時帰国、その辺りでみじかいながらもそこは卒業。（その次は、もっとアップマーケットな水辺のおしゃれなレストラン！腰痛めてやめたけれど、、、チップも結構弾んでもらえていたのかな？ なんか、もらえなく ざんねん） そのとき、みんなからの記念の品、写真を入れるアルバム（キャンベルの缶、実はまだブランクで使っていない！）そこにははさんでいないけど、みんなのポートレイトをお店で撮影した、FEと55mm。なぜだかおぼえていないけど、オーナーさんとその同僚（というか会計の女性かな？手渡しでもらって（後に銀行かな？）いたこともあった気もするな、、、SIとるのでお世話になった！確か、そんな感じ）そこで出会えた一生の友達！ETERNAL FRIENDS!
いろんな肌の色の人、いろんな国籍（おそらく意図的、意識されてたかな？） equal opportunityと私は感じた！
ここの前のバス停使って、仕事に通っていた。このすぐ地下にあるワインショップのオリジナル？の白ワイン（table wine? 白！スッキリフルーティ！辛口！もお気に入りだった！！あれ、また飲みたいなー！！！確か、ブリストルから引っ越ししたあと、夏の休暇で戻ったとき、一度はAveries には行ったかな。実はそのワインセラーでモロッコの写真展示したことがある（venueにも紹介してもらったなー、１行インフォみたいなの。当時きてくれたバース出身の友人は「海の音が聞こえてきそうな写真！て言ってくれたのを思い出した！
その当時（2002）、近所のお店のスタッフさんたちがお昼ご飯（サンドイッチ）を買いにきてくれていて、顔なじみの方がたくさん増えいて、、、だから楽しい思い出！あるなー；）（下でcoffee 入れて、上に上がるとキッチンが、、、サンドイッチメインキングしながら”COLSTON のタワーの時計見ていたなー）
近所のお店で買ったCDとかなぜだかLA?のファンクのCDをDrum’n’Bassの街で買ったり、地元のアーティストの音楽をどうして買わなかった？と今となっては少しの後悔笑 後に2005年Berlinで見つけることになるBANKSYのあのカンバスをCDかなんか買ったらプレゼント！みたいな太っ腹なことやってたなーimperial records ( そこでQuantic の１st、試聴機に入ってて一聴きぼれ！）。のちにベルリンで同じみたいなステンシルを２箇所？で発見。なんか頑張って（お仕事してもそこまで給料多くはなく、日本より、という意味で。外国だし。言葉はフツーに仕事できるぐらいにはなってたかな、１月スタートとか？ほんの数ヶ月だけど、とても楽しいことも、今も友人でいてくれている人もいて！）買ったオイル加工のジャケット（MOTELってとなりの店、イギリスで買ったお洋服だから、イギリスの思い出でまだ持っていて、残っている）とか、あとBristol Guildだったかな？いろんな素敵なものが売っているお店、記念の品探して、そこで！プレゼントしたなー！５５DSLのジーンズをpark streetで買って（今もう流石に手元にはないかな？）履いてたなー！（そこでもらっていたフリー雑誌は、、、Bristolにはそのお店にしか置いてなかった。。。）
そういうどうでも良さそうな、でも普段思い出すこと、あんまりないような、ディテール思い出した。。。
Bus stop 45 Easton to Center 2015
( to go to work… 45! )I often use this bus stop. Blue paint on it…
I wanted to bomb my “WINDOW” piece next to this BANKSY’s window ;)
but the wall surface is not too good (for pasting up) , so I found different place! ( and got permission)
I LOST MY CAMERA 2015 Bristol I ask my friend to press shutter for my selfie ;)!
( I guess… I lost my camera, so I asked my friend to use friend’s camera? I miss my Camera…someone might find it in the bus in Bristol? it was on the way back from somewhere, I asked my friend to drop me off ( and took my selfie! for me, ）I wanted to have ME and WINDOW! I don’t mind if my feet is not full in the frame ;D! I’m leaving tomorrow, so I wanted to have one before my flight…! this was my only chance to do this! coz when I pasted up, I was with my friend, and I took window itself, but I forgto to take selfie of WINDOW and ME!)
” Ah, I came back to Bristol.. lol ! “ IXY aps film 2002 or3?
When I see this, ” Ah, I came back to Bristol.. lol ! ” ( don’t know if this is really BANKSY or… I do know ?)
I have several photos of HERE…! ( M32, on the way back from LDN airport or… ) close to where I used to LIVE.
THEKLA DJ Derek was playing (and he is missing…R.I.P)
looks like 18not 24… I don’t have this lens any more… if I got proper money from that book…ahh.. I could buy lens…
I, relaxmax photographed in Bristol 2006? Thekla I don’t have same camera and same lens anymore ( I can’t take like this )
This boat is music venue ( Club, don’t know if they are still open… DJ Derek was playing (and he is missing…R.I.P)
RED ROSE somewhere I can’t find it yet
I guess I have it somewhere …
n o t r a t ?
RISU desuka?
SLIGHTLY BLURRED 2008
Bristol ( I photographed in ? I don’t know when he did it :)
STOLEN POSTCARD 2008
near Children’s HospitalBristol lens 300mm (換算）( now I only have up to 70mm)
I don’t have 200mm now, if Tangent books have paid me, I could take photo like this again..
relaxmx was here 2004
I wanted to photograph with FUJI VELVIA slide films before I moved out from Bristol 2004 summer
I LEARNED AT
BRISTOL PHOTOGRAPHIC SOCIETY
I PHOTOGRAPHED IN BRISTOL
( Birdy I in POVERTY as foreigner STONE THROW, MARRIAGE, I GOT JOB, save money for MY FIRST EVER SLR, MY FILM DAYS, MY LIFE IN BRISTOL)
Who have used my photo? who haven’t paid me?
LETS PAY TO RELAXMAX!
I wanted to photograph with FUJI VELVIA slide films
before I moved out from Bristol 2004 summer ( to record with GOOD POSI – FILM! ( made into slide… so I can see as “slideshow” on the wall…) in this building, I found many graffiti( including CHEBA!!! I saw your’s here…)
I also took some movie before I left U.K. ( I never SEE, VIDEO TAPES ( 8mm? ) I try make it into DVD or…). It wasn’t the age with I phone movie ( easy to take movie anytime with my mobile nowadays…)
BRISTOL PHOTOGRAPHIC SOCIETY (3month course 2002 winter?
SELF TAUGHT（NO university, NO art school, or No camera school before Bristol)wher I went to
NIKON FE ( manual, 55mm lens…I ‘ve been using...I learned about difference of “LIGHT”… in the morning? noon? or… different colour.. I did Black and White development ( one and only ! experience with the help of teachers or professional photographers? … I don’t remember their names… it was in Clifton…I do remember some faces maybe?… ;D! I still have those film…)One thing I DO REMEMBER from their word… ” TAKE MORE PHOTOS, SHOW MORE PHOTOS to the peoole! ” (how to become better?)
I didn’t know much English about CAMERA … like “APERTURE is 絞り in Japanese ( needed to use 電子dictionary…! so took time to read text papers, ONLY 3 month …since I arrived Bristol it was hard to listen what people are speaking ( too quick ) difficult, but I COUD! I WAS TRYING HARD!)
I was wondering how I can photograph better way not like grainy with IXY aps film 400ISO or…then I learned ” POSI – film” is more expensive and better… bought and bring them back from Japan?( it’s cheaper) and took VELVIA (fuji film) photos before I LEFT BRISTOL… ( my camera choice is for light weight traveler(wanted to buy zoom lens!笑）… I SHOOT ON THE ROAD!)
I got MY NIKON ( auto camera) and new lense…in 2003、4? this was my first ever bought SLR BY MYSELF!
FE was gift from my friend teacher ( I miss him,K-sensei, I haven’t met him for long time… I want to find him ( lost contat… ) because, he gave me his Camera, I started to use NIKON…!( I’ve used CANON for my job as well…good 100mm!)
I choosed VELVIA! because, I LOVE THE COLOUR OF BLUE SKY!
NEW lenses NEW BODY and POSI FILM(VELVIA) … and CHOOSE TO PHOTOGRAPH VERY FINE WEATER! ( in most of the time grey sky Bristol…)
I know 曇り（cloudy) is better for flat light ( 光が回る?）, but I prefer STRONG COLOUR! UNDER THE SUN! I CHOOSE COLOUFUL VELVIA ( You can choose whatever YOU choose…!)
I only photographed 10 posi-film ? (360 photographs?)
in MY LIFE ( VELVIA ) MOROCCO2014 and BRISTOL 2014
( maybe! ) I went onto NEW degital camera….( only a year or… Of course, I still have the NIKON body! MY FIRST EVER BOUTH during my Bristol age)
then when I started to use Degital Camera, MY colour ( in my heart) is always something like THIS VELIVIA BLUE ( kind of.. something strong… around that period of my LIFE 2005…. then I went onto…
Who have used my photo? who haven’t paid me?
LETS PAY TO RELAXMAX!
some photos from THAT book are…
FILM PHOTOS
( APS film and VELVIA slide scanned 2005? then did editting as well…)
LET’S BE ADULT! ( ano—, OTONA ha doko desuka? )
to PAY ME!! for MY LIFE as photographs!!
というか、会社？誰があの本？のお写真（あのーIXYのオリジナルプリント、スキャンしたのとか、いろいろなんです。）お金払ってくれるの？大人になってくださいね！
LOVE IS THE ANSWER 2016
なんでこんなにたくさん写真撮っていたのかなー、Graffitiの！
Why I was so passionate about photographing ”Graffiti Bristol”?
Because… LOVE IS THE ANSWER (2006？ どこだったかなー？たまたま通りがかり！）
二度と通ることはなかった道。 たまたま散歩だったかなー（だいたいの場所覚えているようないないような、、、）確か友達の家に行く通り道？だったのか、、、
One CHANCE ENCOUNTER with this wall … I was walking under the sun to my friend house? I guess… ( summer time , I was in Bristol on the way to dance ( Bigchill , I did official photographer for them! ;D!)
WHAT IS BRISTOL?
I LEARN PHOTOGRAPHY in BRISTOL
I PHOTOGRAPHED in BRISTOL
SEE NO EVIL 2011
I’ve seen many on the street, but I never met…
about Photograph I sent to Cheba in 2007, becouse CHEBA( artist) asked me in 2007, I RELAY ON HIM…( maybe I shoudn’t ?) I don’t know when he left? or… I don’t know other people from Tangents Books…NO CONTACT at all … for 15 years ( crying)
+++++++
I met children in the dessert in 2001
On a full moon night, and they said …” It’s tranquil here…relmax”
then I moved to Bristol summer 2002…
This is where I started to learn ( from professional photographers in BRISTOL) as new born bird!
It’s too poor quality (lol) sometimes! but It’s ME!
after 2 years (2006 to date) I can start this project LIGHT WITHIN .
http://relaxmaxontheroad.com/#lightwithinIt’s good to KEEP LEARNING!
When I look back these photos (I didn’t upload really GOOD QUALITY ONE… ( from Fuji Velvia 2004! I DO HAVE IT HERE IN JAPAN OSAKA as POSI SLIDE VELVIA …and I REMEMBER! I SHOWED as big poster print? My friend gallery did it for me… printing and made posi into psd or eps? quality scanner ( professonal use?) they liked it? BIG MILD MILD WEST (I only showd 2 times in my life… first one is for one of the Bristol Night! ( 3 month Bristol DJs…) .I still have it ? but it’s broken… paper! really thick… I wonder which printer they had ?( I ask different place for printing now..)
I smile ( and bit of almost tears) , some are little bit blurred , slow shutter ( bad weather) , or…
absstructus-blue-tus WE NAMED THAT CLOUD…
(ikue lives matter なんですけど！！）
航思社 is good normal company ( theypaid me! for same photo) Of course, they said ” I want to USE ‘this’ and ‘ that ‘ for COVER ”
(same photo Tangent Books have already used for different editions for several times … and Tangent Books pay NOTHING! )
cover photos for books
『ヤサグレたちの街頭—-瑕疵存在の政治経済学批判 序説』航思社 (2015)
敗北と憶想: 戦後日本と〈瑕疵存在の史的唯物論〉(2019)
